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Gaia is very different from the last time I logged in. To think it used to be a community of forum goers and now I am not sure what all of Gaia entails. I received numerous "achievements" for just about anything before I could even browse the site. Not sure what they are for or what it goes towards, but I haven't the time to really check right now. Just popping in out of curiosity. I changed my hair to what was closest to what I originally had before I decided I would look like a villain in his PJs with bed head.
A lot has changed, a lot of good that I have created in my life. If ever there was something I could pass on as advice, being the once confused, angry, emotionally detached person that I was, I'd have to say I wasted my years in repetitious hatred, and that in adulthood I have found that you create your own happiness, and you don't have to live solely by the whim of others, that putting the needs of other people before your own without a second thought, and not taking the time to address your own needs, leads to unhappiness. You think in pleasing others you will find contentment, but there will always be others, and they will always have wants, it is not possible to please everyone and maintain your own happiness and needs. If we were to invest the time and love we devote to others, and apply it towards ourselves, we would feel whole, content, at ease. We would feel love for ourselves and then, in accepting ourselves we can begin to fully accept love from others. That us no easy task. But take the time each morning and look into the mirror and make an affirmation, know that what you say will be applied to you. Say to your reflection "I am confident in myself". mean what you say. it will be hard to look into your eyes when saying it, but in time, repeating this morning decree, you will embody these affirmations. Only think the most positive of yourself, because when you develop, others around you will notice, and be charged with that positive energy. State your goals "I will be a great healer" or whatever comes to mind. And know that you have taken the first step of many steps in your journey of self development.

As for my affirmations, I am complete, I am whole, It is safe for me to be strong, I am supported and loved. And just for the sake of allowing myself to have fun I AM MADE OF AWESOME.