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Right now theres so much going through my mind.

Something tells me im being tricked,
Something tells me im deceived
But something tells me that I could be wrong.

Lots of things become hard to believe when you stress over it
Am i overthinking? im not.

I miss her, and something tells me i might not see her again
It would be easy for her to just vanish
Gone, missing, forgotten. It's all the same.

Maybe a relationship this subtle isn't what its going to cut out what it was meant to be.

I try to encompass my faults, but really, meaningless changes didn't bring difference.

Right now my heart beats a thousand times slower rhythmatically,
my eyes feel heavy, but its okay since i can hold back my tears.

But really, everyone who holds back their tears are only still crying on the inside. Its eating us away, our hearts and thoughts.

Maybe life just isn't meant to be perfect for me.

Maybe there is a god who wants to just punish me for being so gullable yet so doubtful.

Nothing seems right;
Everything doesn't add up, something is wrong.

A cog that makes my heart beat seems to be out of place

I'm so pathetic that i can't decide if im worried, brokenhearted, lonely, or just simply lied to.

I've heard that time heals all wounds.

I've got my life ahead of me,
if god really exists
i just wish he can set things right again.

No family, no real friends, and confused about [her].
Tell me that you're okay.
I miss you so much.