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It's hilarious to even imagine that my family will ever BE a family, Easter is just here to rub it in my face that there will never be a single day where nothing hateful occurs between the members of this "defective unit". My step dad won't stop talking s**t about each of us, he says he owns us and that we wouldn't be alive without him. It makes him feel good to make us feel bad, to make us think he's better then us. I'm being literal too, it's ******** ridiculous. My brother actually laughs at it, even though my step dad is constantly making fun of him and threatening to throw him out on the streets. Every day is a repeat of the last, only more-so. Everyone gets a little more insane in their own way, including myself. My step dad is lucky, the alcohol makes him forget what's happened in no time. Same goes for my mom, she's had 2 brain surgeries and smokes all the time which is wearing her memory down a lot. Everything that happens here is going to stick with me while I grow up, all this pointless s**t that happens in this house. All of it circles my step dad, he's the cause of my family being a peace of s**t. At this very moment my brother and him are yelling, when they are 2 feet away from each other. My mom and I wake up to this every morning, but it's just not enough to say that I'm tired of it anymore. I'm more then tired, I'm sick from it. I'll be sick from it the rest of my life, where as he's at the END of his. It's not even fair, not that it's supposed to be in the first place..

Now my mom is trying to throw my brother out, for long distance charges on our phone. On Easter none the less, ha. My brother is just begging for a cigarette and my step dad is sitting in the living room going on about how useless my brother is. Things like this happen every hour of every day.

Well, theres my holiday spirit. I hope the Easter bunny chokes. I'll make a more positive update tonight, maybe I'll be feeling better by then.

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