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Musings of the Morbid Maiden Miniji
So! We got a new kitten! Here are some pictures! ^^ These are just the first few crappy ones that I was able to get in the car before he was neutered...I was planning on taking better ones, but he's been hiding all day and I haven't been able to find him sweatdrop Anyway, here:


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On a different topic, a lot has changed since I last wrote in this journal o.o I no longer live in Minnesota with my parents. I live in Canada with my fiancee, and I'm not working or going to school right now, which is a bummer and makes me feel really lazy and rather worthless. I try to clean at least, though sweatdrop There are a lot of stressful things going on in my life, but I try to work with them. Hopefully Jaya/Nirvias and I will be able to move out and into our own apartment within the next few months.

Since I've been doing nothing so much lately, I've begun to feel more and more purposeless lately...which isn't good, because I have an addictive personality and I have problems with self-mutilation...I haven't cut for almost two years now, but I have been craving it again recently, which isn't good ^^;; But, I try to work with that too. There's no way that I want to get myself into that s**t again, it was hell.

My one entry made me laugh a bit sarcastically when I was reading it over just now...I mean, look:

I'm hungry. I haven't hardly eaten anything in the last two days. What did I eat today, anyway? Hmm. I had...a banana, a granola bar, a bagel, some stuffing, one hard-boiled egg, some milk, and a large chai tea.

That seems like heaven to me right now. I eat maybe one meal a day--Jaya does too--and usually it's made up of just starch and carbs. I never get dairy. I never get meat/other viable sources of protein. I hardly ever get fruits or vegetables. It sucks =/ It's because everyone's so poor here...I'm hoping that Jaya and I will be able to drastically change that once we get our own place. I should be able to work after August-ish (after I get sponsored in July), and Jaya's working hard right now...she got a full time job two and a half weeks ago, and it's going pretty well so far. She gets her first paycheck tomorrow, so hopefully we'll be able to go shopping and buy ourselves some real food for once.


Anyway, none of you are obligated to read that small print if you don't want to. It's just me being depressing, so don't worry about it ^^;;
Have a nice day, minna! 3nodding






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Miss Kupi
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commentCommented on: Fri Mar 09, 2007 @ 01:31am
Aww, he's beautiful. Excellent markings on him, too. It sounds like he'll be pretty freaked for awhile, but if you all keep messing with him, he'll probably calm down in a week or so. My siamese used to yowl like that all the time. I'd think he had strangled himself or gotten stuck somewhere, but he'd really just be lonely. But he sounds super cute! One of my cats is like that- you start petting him and he freaks out like he never gets pet. He does, he's just selfish. :xp: Polo sounds like an good name. :3nod: My cats are named Astrid (the siamese) Cracker (He's a tabby with weird stripes and big blotches of white), Suki (The mama cat, she's a tuxedo) and the baby I'm naming Ash. It's a tree, so it matches his dad's plant name. Plus, he's ashy colored. I had to start bottlefeeding my kitten. The Mama cat stopped making milk completly, and is acting like she's in heat now. My boy cats are going INSANE. :XD All night they sit outside the bathroom and yowl at her. So today I got a kitty bottle and formula. From just 2 feedings, he's already started perking up it seems. I was getting really worried about him. His eyes are just starting to open, too. His left eye has about a forth of the eye starting on the inside corner open. It's adorable. They should open most the way tomorrow. I'm still hoping for blue eyes pretty bad. :XD I still put him with the mother when I'm not feeding him, and she cleans him and cuddles him. She'll let him nurse, there's just nothing there. But I get the feeling that if I let her in the whole house, she'd abandon him completely. Right now, the kitten is cuddling on my shoulder next to my cheek. :XD I think he's sleeping. O.o; I'm from Iowa, but I moved south. :XD I know that purposeless feeling too. >.x; It's not fun. I felt that way for awhile, and then I decided that I wanted to really pursue being a veterinarian. For now, I'm just working on becoming a tech though. And being poor sucks. >.x; Most the time, I only eat once a day, too. But, my son does eat like $25 in baby food a week. :sweat:


commentCommented on: Fri Mar 09, 2007 @ 03:36pm
We found him hiding in the area under the stairs sometime in the afternoon. It was kind of bad, since someone left the downstairs door open, and we were supposed to keep it closed (because if he's hiding upstairs, we can just search through stuff and find him...but downstairs is a completely different matter. We have a family friend renting out part of the basement from us, and his junk is *everywhere*, so, it's nearly impossible to find a little kitty when he's being quiet). So, now that he was forced to stay upstairs for the rest of the day/night, he's becoming a little bolder. He stays in the bathtub most of the time, but Cookie and Boo have come to check him out, and they both seem to get along with him pretty well (except when he comes too close, and then they hiss at him). He started running around and exploring stuff in the middle of the night. Cookie, Boo, and Littlefoot often sleep in our room (there's a cat hole cut into the bottom of our door, so cats can come and go as they please), so he kept coming and going from our room. It's becoming quite obvious that he wants to make friends with the other cats *badly*...from around 4:00 to 6:30, I didn't get any sleep because he'd relentlessly come in and try to befriend our cats (befriending meaning that the kitten came into the room, spotted one of the other cats, approached them and howled at them for about 3 minutes straight, then went a bit too close to them and got hissed at, and then finished by running away and returning a few minutes later to do the exact same thing over again). He also learned how to get on top of the dresser and knocked off about half of our sword/knife/throwing star collection x_x;; So, we'll have to try to teach him to stop going up there. I like the name Ash ^^ Your kitten sounds so adorable...I do kind of hope that I'll get to raise a newborn kitten some day...we'll see, I guess. I hope that his eyes are blue for you <3 Eek, I've never seen boy cats react to a girl in heat, but I'm sure that it is crazy X3 I've heard that they can smell a girl from something crazy like 2 miles away, so I'm sure that having your girl cat just on the other side of the bathroom door *would* make them insane :whee: Where in Iowa did you live? I lived in Rochester, so I was only about an hour or so from the border. I have a lot of things that I want to do...I want to be a writer, but my muses experienced some bad trauma a few years ago and haven't decided to come back to life yet...I've thought seriously about becoming a paleontologist or a marine biologist as well. Psychiatry is also interesting to me, but I don't want to go through 11 more years of school...I'd be interested in getting into something like chiropractics or acupuncture, but I have things with bones/joints and needles, so I don't know if those would be good careers for me. I'm interested in skin care. I'm also interested in becoming a vet. So...I really don't know. Right now I'm looking into an online course that would make me a certified Medical Tech (so that I don't just get a job at McDonald's or something after I get my green card), but eventually I want to go to a real college (moreso because my parents are freaking out and making me go, but whatever, college would be good for any career I get ^^'') with a major in biology. I'm a total biology nut X3;; I love plants and life and chromosomes and such. Don't like the math part, but I'll deal with that when it comes. Yeah, being poor really sucks. I hope that you at least take a vitamin supplement and/or eat healthily! Jaya and I try to take a multi-vitamin every day, because we're obviously not getting all of the vitamins and minerals that we need (I mean, there can't be a balanced diet in having just noodles every day >>). $25 in baby food doesn't sound like a lot to me, but I guess I don't really know, because I don't have experience in feeding a child for extended periods of time like that. Either way, I hope that you'll be able to become a tech soon! I'm sure that it's stressful taking care of your kid while you're poor...so hopefully you'll be able to go up in the job world pretty soon. If I'm stable enough when I'm your age, I hope that I'll be able to have children around then...I love kids more than anything, and I'm looking forward to being a mommy so much.



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commentCommented on: Sat Mar 10, 2007 @ 09:17am
Aww. Well at least he's trying to make friends. xd It's weird how cats will have fascinations with the bath tub. My cats will play in it all the time. The mama cat keeps pooping in it instead of the litterbox in the bathroom. >.x; So I had to start putting the litterbox in the bathtub.

I lived in Des Moines. Pretty boring. xd My family still lives there, with the exception of my dad who lives in Illinois still. I've only been to Iowa once since moving down here, and that was about 3 years ago. Maybe a bit more. sweatdrop Time flies, huh? I keep meaning to make a trip up there.

Do online courses work well? I was looking into something like that, or a by mail thing to get my Vet Tech. I don't have a lot of time for school. sweatdrop I was looking into becoming a cosmetician, and may still do that. I was going to wax people. xd It sounds like a fun job. Plus, it's probably gratifying if the customers are complete bitches.

I try to remember to take a vitamin, but I forget all the time. sweatdrop $25 is a lot considering I spend maybe 15 on meals for myself the whole week. xd And then there's diapers... I feel I'm too young to be a mom. xd But, it is what it is, and I wouldn't change it. It's so crazy just watching how different he gets. He's starting to talk more and more, and it's just so fun. He's also a great sharer for his age. xd He's the only kid I've ever seen under 2 hand a toy to another child. Most kids will give toys to adults, but not to other kids.

But I should save the gloating for my livejournal. xd I'm too proud a mama at times.


commentCommented on: Sun Mar 11, 2007 @ 02:49am
Yeah whee He and Boo seem to get along pretty well right now, but the rest of the cats are still wary of him. Eolie wants to be his friend (of course, Eolie's a sweetie and thinks that he's a cat most of the time), but Khai's still scared of him ^^;; Ah well. Eek about pooing in the bathtub! Though I guess that there could be worse spots ^^;;

Des Moines is where Luther College is, right? I could be wrong about that, but for some reason that rings a bell with me. I was planning on going to Luther for a few years, but fate decided that that wasn't gonna happen.

I'm not sure if online courses are good or not...I graduated from high school last June, and I haven't done any college-type courses yet. I'm thinking that most online courses would be just as good as the regular classes--at least if you have an okay teacher and you don't mind working hard on your own. I'm okay with doing solitary work, so I'm sure I'd do fine with it. Working in a salon atmosphere would be kind of interesting, but I don't know if I'd really enjoy it. A lot of cosmeticians are expected to converse with their customers a lot, and I don't know if I'd really be comfortable doing that ^^;; I don't mind working, and I work hard...but I'd rather keep to myself most of the time instead of talking and gossiping with everyone.

I forget to take vitamins a lot too ^^;; Eek, yeah, I guess $25 would be a lot when you throw the diaper price on top of it. $15 doesn't sound like much to me either, but then when I think about it, that's probably around the same amount that my weekly meals would cost too sweatdrop Oh, one-year-olds are so cute :3 He does sound like he's doing really well with the sharing thing--that's pretty good for such a young kid. He'll probably be pretty outgoing when he gets older. And I think it's good to be proud to be a mommy <3 Better that than the other way around, anyway ^^



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commentCommented on: Sun Mar 11, 2007 @ 03:02am
Yeah, my old roommate's cat would poop on clothes and right in front of the door in protest of not getting let outside. It usually can take cats awhile to get used to dogs. My cats all have figured out my dogs are wusses and won't hurt them. xd So they pick on them.

Luther is actually in Decorah, IA. I was going to go there. sweatdrop Des Moines the capital smack in the middle of the state. If you go south from I-35 for about 3 hours from Minneapolis, that's where it is. xd Where I live now is like.. another 12 hours from Des Moines, but still straight down I-35. xd

I'm not great with small talk. Better than I was, but I'm pretty socially inept at times. xd I never know what to say, so I end up saying weird things. >.x; But it'll probably be a few months before I start doing any kind of school.

Babies are expensive, but not as bad as you would think. xd At least, there are cheap ways of going about it. Most my son's clothes came from thrift stores, but it still looks new. Babies usually don't wear their clothes out. xd So you can find some really cute stuff. His new favourite game is to run around chasing me. xd He'll run over to me, snuggle, and then run away. So I chase after him going "I'm gunna git you!" All weird, and he cracks up laughing. Then I grab him and tickle him. xd He's really outgoing, which I'm happy about because I was really shy. But he's also crazy musical. Whenever he hears music he starts bouncing, or dancing if he's standing up. And he loves to hit stuff together to hear the noise it makes.


commentCommented on: Sun Mar 11, 2007 @ 06:02pm
Eek, pooping on clothes o.o One of our cats (I think it was Tigger) would continually pee on everything in our room...luckily she stays downstairs for most of the time now ^^;; (it's because Cookie likes to always be in our room lately, and those two seriously do not get along). Most of my cats know that Eolie-puppy is a wuss...I'm sure that Khai'll figure it out pretty soon. Eolie could *never* beat up anyone, I bet XD;; He thinks he's a cat, he's scared of everything, and he has a bad hip (when he was just a few weeks old, he was living in a different environment, and a few kids got into a fight and threw a frying pan...and it hit Eolie and his hip went out >< They were too poor to fix it back then, and then he just grew up with it like that, so now it's way too late =/ So he never really got to enjoy being a puppy, so he never really grew up out of that mindset--which means that he's a cutie, but he's also insanely disobedient x.x). Ah, okay. I think I screwed it up 'cause they both start with "D's"...as well as I'm pretty sure that I took a school field trip to Des Moines when I was a lot younger. You live in Texas, right? I would've thought that the trip from Iowa to Texas was longer than 12 hours, but you probably right. I'm a good driver, but I have absolutely no sense of direction, so reading maps isn't the easiest thing for me to do :sweat: I used to work at JC Penney's in the Perfume/Women's Accessories and Lingerie departments, so it's not like I'm *bad* with small talk...I just really don't enjoy it that much XD;; I'm a lot better at saying what I want/mean to when I'm writing. I'm pretty fluent at discussion on here, but it would be a lot more awkward if we were talking on the phone or in person or something like that. Ah well. Yeah, I'm sure that babies probably would grow their clothes out before getting a chance to wear them out ^^ I'll probably hit garage sales and such for cheap, good clothing when I'm ready to have a kid. Aww, that game sounds so cute X3 My cousin has two babies right now...one I think is about to turn three, and the other just turned one. I feel a bit guilty for living up in Canada right now, 'cause I haven't seen them in forever...I haven't seen the younger one since he was about 4 months old, so I feel like I'm missing out on seeing my extended family grow =/ He was sick when I visited at Christmas, so I didn't get to see him then. Hopefully I'll be able to see him when I visit next December, even though he'll almost be two then ^^;; Ach, time does fly. I was also really shy when I was younger (what am I talking about? I'm still pretty shy :XD), so I hope that I'll have good luck like you and have outgoing kids when I have them.



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commentCommented on: Sun Mar 11, 2007 @ 06:20pm
Yeah, my cats will pee on any fabric. >.x; They got mad at one of my dogs and peed all over the blanket he used as a bed. My two boys (Cracker and Astrid) have been trying to beat each other up since the Mama cat's not in their with them. Ouch, that sounds awful what happened to your dog. sad I fostered a dog that had been hit when he was young, and his jaw was all messed up. It's awful. >.x;

I've driven it before. xd It's long and boring, and if the traffic's bad, it can take even more than 12 hours. Mapquest lies when it says the drive is only 10 hours from Denton to Des Moines. crying

xd I'm like that too. I can write until my fingers fall off, but I'll get tongue tied a lot if it's in person. And I absolutely suck at talking on the phone. >.x; But then again, no one calls me but my dad. xd

My best finds have been an Ecko shirt for 2.50 and a fubu hoodie for 1.99. xd My son wears mostly department store brands, it's awful. But I rarely spend more than $3 on any article of his clothes. And the stuff still looks nice, too. xd My mom still hasn't seen my son. -_-; Either have my siblings, or any other family except my dad. My son will be 2 after Christmas. gonk It's hard to believe that at this time last year, he was 3 months old. neutral They grow too fast, I swear. xd I've found that if you give the kids a lot of interaction with kids their age, they don't get as shy. Or at least, they get used to it more. But my son was always kind of a ham. xd He'd always make silly noises and faces at old ladies to get love even when he was little.


commentCommented on: Mon Mar 12, 2007 @ 09:35am
We mainly have trouble with poop with our cats (in the kitchen, everywhere *except* in the litterbox...it's pretty common for it to be just outside of it or somewhere across from it in the bathroom >>), and pee with our dog (he's losing control of his bladder, and he doesn't always let someone know when he needs to go out...so he just goes on the floor ^^''). Yeah, Eolie's hip is pretty sad...he can't always sit very well, his one leg'll slide a bit. But he's happy, so at least that's good. Your poor dog with the jaw, though, I'm sure that would've been just as bad =/ I mean, he could probably walk fine and such, but I'm sure that things like eating were a lot harder. Ech, I don't like driving on highways (I don't like driving much over 50-60 mph, so the speed scares me :sweat:), and I don't like driving for really long periods of time...my dad had me drive for about two hours once in the early morning, and he refused to let me play the radio 'cause he wanted me to concentrate...so...I ended up feeling like I was going to fall asleep, since the drive was so boring and I didn't have any music or talking to wake me up ^^;;;; So I'm kind of scared of that, too. But I'm sure that if I had to drive for a really long time, I could do it. I just don't want to XD;; I'm alright with talking on the phone, just sometimes I have trouble thinking of topics, so I have problems with long silences ^^;; A bigger problem for me is my inability to record messages. I can't relax and talk normally, so I always end up sounding really awkward :sweat: Ooh, those are pretty good prices for children's clothing. Penney's merchandise wasn't nearly as expensive as other department store brands', but I don't think I ever saw anything for under $5-$15...unless it was old and on clearance. Wow, my mom would kill me if I had a kid and she hadn't seen it within a few months o.o But, then again, if I was too poor to go visit her, she would've immediately come to see me ^^;; It's too bad about that, though =/ Yeah, kids do grow up really fast...one of my friends has a younger brother, and he just adored me more than anything when he was really little...I still see him as being three, even though he'll be 8 in June. Aww, cute X3 My one baby cousin is a ham...he'd make faces and pose for pictures when he was about the same age as your son. It's pretty cute <3



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commentCommented on: Tue Mar 13, 2007 @ 09:47am
Sometimes, I think cats are just lazy. >.x; Ever since I got this crazy looking dome litterbox, the cats like.. Love it. It has stairs and all this other weird stuff. xd That's sad about your dog, though. You could always make him wear diapers. razz Yeah, the dog had a hard time eating. X.x His jaw couldn't close all the way, and his teeth didn't line up in the back right.

Driving scares me period. xd But coffee helps for long distances, as does like.. Loud music. xd I'll probably fly up to see my family sometime in the future, but taking a baby on a plane doesn't sound all that fun, either. xd

Yeah, my voice mail message is hilarious. xd It sounds so weird and awkward. But I don't like talking to machines. >.>;

Yeah, I've lucked out. xd My son is like, the best dressed baby his age, but I payed a fraction of the cost. My mother just doesn't really care about me/her first grandchild. >.>; It doesn't really surprise me. She's just generally really vain when it comes down to it. She has a new 'fiance' so that's all she really cars about. I still always think of my sister as looking as she did when she was like.. 12. But she's 16 now. gonk My son loves to pose for the camera. xd You take it out and he like.. smiles and stares at it.


commentCommented on: Tue Mar 13, 2007 @ 04:22pm
Hmm. We kind of just have this huge Tupperware-like box for a litter box ^^;; We might get a dome one when we move out, though, since we'll have to get new things for Cookie, and I like how the dome ones look :3 Mm, yeah, we probably could get him to wear diapers, and that would probably be a good thing...just, I don't think Rose and Richard are willing to make that much of an effort for him, as well as they wouldn't want to pay for something like that >_>;;

Loud music helps me too X3;; I mean, it can be distracting, but it's more helpful than anything. It makes the trip way less boring. Hmm. Your son is probably old enough to be alright on a plane...my mom took me on a plane to Michigan (to see my paternal grandparents) when I was about 2 or 3 months old, 'cause my dad went to Japan on a work trip and she didn't want to be alone for that time...apparently I did pretty okay, until I threw up all over the place xd Heheh.

That's too bad about your mom =/ I mean, yeah, good for her for being happy with her life and being in love and such, but she still has a daughter and a family to take care of... stare You don't just get to start over when you feel like it, you have to take care of your past as well. Jaya's parents probably won't care that much either, when we have a kid...I mean, her mom'll be happy, and her dad'll be creepishly overbearing, but Richard and her brother and such will probably be just like, "Oh, cute...okay, whatever *leaves*" ^^;; Heh...my parents will be good grandparents, though.



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