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I know this isn't gaia-related, but I would just like to get it off my chest... xp

When I first came to deviantart.com, my art totally suck(ed and still does! sweatdrop ), and some people gave me pity and watched me, but as I got a little more pageviews, those people no longer watched me and commented on my sucky art. I always wonder why people do that? Why watch someone on pity instead of watching them on how much they can improve or how good they are already? I just can't understand that. sad

And ever since I got a tablet, I think I've turned one of my dA friends into an enemy b/c we're probably competing as we try to overcome the other and improve our skills... I can't say that I'm good, so there's no way I can say that I'm arrogant. Sometimes I hate myself for trying because it's not the friendly competition between me and my friend on digital vs traditional, it's digital against each other and somewhat annoys me because people get so arrogant when they're close to the source of their so-called greatness... I, on the other hand, don't believe I'm that great; I just try my best even if I'm a failure. Trying is the fun part in life, isn't it?