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UGH! I WANT TO MURDER MY DAD!!!!!!!!!!

My dad is so ******** retarded! I just want to strngle him or stab him in the eye right now!!!!!!!!

So, justin case you're interested on why, I'm going to tell you. Although it's mostly because I want to vent my frustrations in a way that will not get me grounded.

So first off, there was a meeting for parents and students at the high school tonight. My friend needed to go, but her parents couldn't go for some reason, so she needed a ride. Me, being the nice person that I am, asked my parents if they could drive her too and they agreed. I repeat. They AGREED! (that will be an important fact later)

So we go to the meeting thing, and my dad starts out acting like he normally would.

We're siting in the performance arts center, PAC, and my friend and I see some of our other friends. Our other friends want us to go sit with them in the back, but because my dad is pmsing, he says no.

I ask why. A reasonable question right? I thought so.

And what does he say? He gets mad and snaps at me "I'm sitting by you so that you'll pay attention, instead of goofing off."

My friend then whispers to me, "why wouldn't we pay attention? What is the point of coming if we don't pay attention??"

After that in the car my parents are talking about all the advanced courses they want me to take, and they start talking about me taking a test to skip some years of english or whatever.

I merely voice one oppinion, "I would fail..." Because I am not all that good at english, writing stories yes, but spelling and grammer, definitely not. At least not good enough to skip a whole class of it!!

My dad then jumps on me and starts cussing right in front of my friend, who then makes a joke about jumping out the car window. It may have been just a joke, but it was kind of embarrassing... And then my dad starts talking about how I don't apply myself to my schoolwork enough, nevermind the fact that I always get all A's and sometimes a B.

Later at my house he starts a long lecture about how I need to be more independant and do stuff without my friends, nevermind the fact that I only get to see my friends in the hallways and in one class period at school, so I have to go without them almost the whole day any way. He insulted me many times in this lecture, while asking me to do a lot of different chores for him like picking up some trash, going and getting stuff from the car, when it's FREEZING outside, doing the dishes, etc. During this whole time I bite my toung.

After a while I am getting sick and tired of him telling me to do all this s**t, and lecturing me, and crap. But what sends me over the edge is when he calls me a 'shithead' for not being able to find something out in the car, THAT WASN'T EVEN THERE IN THE FIRST PLACE!

Later I'm trying to cool down so I don't 'accidentally' punch him in the face, whle eating my dinner. When my dad calls out for me to get him the phone I tell him that I'm eating, but he doesn't care.

I have had enough, so I tell him that I can't. And when he asks why I simply state that I'm too much of a 'shithead'.

Almost imeadiately, (he is too fat to move that fast) he comes out and screams at me for being disrespectful, and says that he's tired of my 'attitude', and that I'm not supposed to use such language, and that I'm not to say that kind of thing to him EVER again.


So, apparently... IT'S OKAY FOR HIM TO CALL ME THAT, ALONG WITH OTHER NAMES I'VE NOT MENTIONED, BUT WHEN I SAY ONE 'BAD' WORD, NOT EVEN TECHNICALLY CALLING HIM THAT I GET SCREAMED AT AND ALMOST GROUNDED??

I'm going to ******** kill something.... *glares in my father's general direction*

Sorry if you wasted your time reading this, I just needed to voice my thoughts before I started pulling my hair out. stressed