so today mrs. bowmen (bowman?) came up to me in la and was like, "hey meghan. i hope u don't mind but i want to nominate u." and i was just thinking, "for what? the grammys?" but she said, "yeah. for the g.t. ur writing is so good but nobody knows about it until half the year is over because u don't toot ur own horn."
so i said no, i didn't mind. but she also said that she couldn't gurantee (? i no i spelt that wrong i'm just too lazy to change it) that i would be in it this year, only that the english teachers would know about me when i went up to the high school. so what was the point of getting my hopes up? I NEED MORE WRITING EXPOSURE!!!!!!!! i mean seriously, if i want to be an author i need to be familiar with the trade since they don't really teach it much anywhere.
point one on mrs. bowmen: why the hell does she still say "u don't toot ur own horn?" i despise that saying with a vengence. it's soooooo annoying. point two: i dont, "toot my own horn" becuz people already think i'm a freak. teachers love me for some strange reason since i'm not really nice or anything. and whenever i say i like la they just stare at me like i just grew a new head. nobody's supposed to like writing. i'm a loser who likes it, so i keep it hidden. telling teachers about it or exposing too much of my ability in writing (can u believe it? i get the perfect grades and never try?) just makes them brag about me to other teachers and to kids. I ******** HATE IT.
have u ever had a teacher brag about u? if they do it to another teacher and then tell u, u feel violated. like they're using ur talent as an example of their teaching abilities. if they do it to kids, u feel embarrassed as they alll stare at u, and u just want to b***h slap the teacher. it's so annoying!!!!!!!!! stressed
what i want is exposure in the arts (not fine arts, but the regular ones), and literature with experts and no other classmates to distract me. the room would be perfectly quiet except for the teacher sitting next to me, who's either lecturing or demonstrating.
that would be my paradise. my unreachable dreamland. redface
********. i told u i was a freak.
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BOOYAH!
hahahaha
GO US!
everyone mey think we're stupid little writing loving teachers pets BUT WE DON'T TRY TO BE! WE DON'T WANT TO BE! SO SHUT THE ******** UP YOU ******** SHALLOW LITTLE BASTARDS!
ok sorry for the swearing but yeah, thats what i think
you aren't a freak meghan, you're just a lot like me! mrgreen
and of course i'm not a freak!
ahahahahaha
i hope that wasn't insulting at all lol
we love you meghan!
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