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"Butterfly"
BY: FReAKyEMoKiD
I saw him. He was standing as if he was an angel. His hair was flowing gently behind his back. He was taller than any other. Face flawless. I knew he must be the one. The one meant to save me. I was astonished to ever see something so amazing. I stared with awe, for too long to remember. Startled was I when I heard his voice out of no where
“Are you just going to stand there all day?”
This comment made me stare even more. I had no idea he could talk. I guess in my mind I saw him as some pretty painting meant to be stared at. He walked closer to me. All I could do was stand there. He lent over me so it seemed as though he was about to kiss me. It was to my dismay when he simply asked
“What might your name be,” he continued, “it must be something amazing for such a pretty girl as yourself.”
“My name is u-um Emi.” I replied shaking
“Mine’s Ryo. It is nothing to fancy but it suits me well.”
“Nice to meet you Ryo.”
I then walked away. To my surprise he followed. I guess it was his turn to be the one who was staring. He looked up to the sky as if he wasn’t scared that he would trip or fall. It wouldn’t startle me one bit. Something as angelic as he must never fall.
He followed me all the way to my house even when it started to rain. He was walking behind me as we came to my door. I turned around so I could ask him something and he was gone. I was confused but at the same time I knew that he would be back. I walked inside only to be greeted by my step-dad who was furious about something. He never thought twice about who did what and why. He started yelling as soon as I got in the door.
“Where have you been?”
“I was out with my friend Ryo.”
“Who is this Ryo kid? And why haven’t I met him?”
“He’s no one just someone I met when I was on my way home from.”
I walked away thinking my conversation was over and done with. He grabbed my arm as hard as he could and swung me back over to him. I could tell by the look on his face that it wasn’t over. With no one home but him and me he pulled me into his room with an anxious look on his face. I stared up at his brown eyes and nearly broke my neck because he was so tall. He cornered me up in the wall and beat me until I was un-conscious. I woke up dazed and confused in my room. I got up and was immediately overcome with a feeling of pain and dizziness. I laid back down in the bed and tried to calm myself down. I finally got back up.
I walked downstairs to the kitchen to get something to eat as I was hoping that no one would be home. I was still sore from my earlier beating. My back was sore and I found it hard to walk. My head felt like I got shot. I checked my head just to make sure. I rummaged through the cabinet looking for something to eat. I found lots of things including cereal, bread, chicken, and turkey but none of them seemed too appetizing. I decided that I was going to go outside and look for Ryo. I went to the door and grabbed my jacket from the coat hanger. I walked out into the cold foggy street. The rain had made puddles on the ground. I was starting to regret not bringing my boots. After only walking a block I had mud and water all the way up to my knees. The wind blew and my blonde hair flowed with the breeze. I walked up to the point where I met Ryo the first time. I was hoping to see him walking along with his brown hair and blue eyes facing towards the sky. I was in no such luck. I turned around and started to walk the six blocks home.
My whole entire outfit was covered in the nasty water that was lying on the cobblestone streets. The cars were flying past me and ever so often one of them would splash something on me. I was looking at the ground trying to count the stones when all of a sudden I ran into something, or might I say someone. I looked up and it was Ryo. I grabbed him and bore my head into his chest. I felt so relieved to see him even though I had only met him hours earlier. I started to cry. I couldn’t help it he was just so comforting. He lifted up my head and wiped away my tears. I knew he could see in my eyes the pain I felt and how the bruises on my back and all over were piercing my body making the pain almost unbearable. He looked me straight in the eyes.
“I am sorry that I can not help you.” He said
“It is only a few marks,” I wiped my face a couple of times and continued, “It is not any worse than it has ever been.”
“He has no right.”
“But he still does it anyway.” I almost cried again
“He will be taught a lesson.” He had a weird look on his face as if he was actually going to do something of some sort
“I am sorry Ryo, but I must go or this will be nothing compared to what will come.”
“Emi, wait!”
“Yes, Ryo.”
“Stay with me.”
“I can not.”
I walked off with a smile and a faint tear. I got but a few feet and then collapsed. I guess the pain must have been too much because not but ten seconds later I closed my eyes. And wondered if he would come for me.
Later that evening I awoke to a blurry figure standing over me. After a few moments of blinking hoping to regain vision, I could finally make out who it was. It was Ryo. He was standing over me with a cold towel ready to help. I was amazed. I had no idea that someone I had just met would care about my safety and well being. I arose immediately and thought about how mad my dad would be if he knew that I was here with Ryo.
“You must take me home right this moment.” I said thoughts still racing through my head
“I can not it is not safe there,” he went on, “I have seen the marks on your back and seen the pain you feel. You have no need to go back to that horrible place. You must stay here with me.”
“I couldn’t be a burden.”
“Being a burden is something that you are not. You, Emi, will never be a burden. At least not to me.”
I couldn’t help but feel my cheeks get hot. I started crying. I suddenly thought to myself that I cry too much for my own good. I wiped away my tears and started yelling
“Why would I stay with you!?” I got a lot louder “All you have done to me is rub the fact that you have a real life in my face.”
I sat there for a minute and then finally said
“You have a good life.”
I was calm as I said this and this alone made me realize how bad of a life I really had. I
refused to leave only because it is my life. Never have I been through so much change other than the day that my mom died leaving me with my step-dad. My step-dad used to be a kind man. He used to play in the yard with me and talk with me. Not at all mean was he. We used to have a good life. A happy family who loved and cherished everyone. Then one day on my way home from school my step-dad pulled up beside me in his car and told me to get in. We went to the hospital and walked into a little room apart from the rest. I never thought I would see my mom is such a condition but I was wrong. She was hooked up to tons of cords and wires none of which looked to comforting. The doctor came in a minute or two after me and started telling me all these things. The first words that came out of his mouth were
“I am sorry,” he continued, “I am afraid your mother has been put in a desperate situation. She had been hit by a car when crossing the street. Apparently the driver was drunk, because when he was pulled over to be questioned he didn’t even know that he hit someone.”
I flashed back to the real life and ran out the door. I knew he would run after me but I didn’t care. My step-dad was the only family I had left even though he didn’t treat me like it. I went home and rushed to my room. I looked up at the clock on the wall only to realize that I had been gone over three hours. I tried not to think of how mad my step-dad would be if he found out where I was. I closed my eyes and dreamt a dream of what life would be like if my mother had never died.
I awoke the next morning and took a shower. I got dressed and went downstairs listening to see if my step-dad was coming every five seconds. I knew it was wrong to be avoiding him but I knew that what would happen if he did see me would be much more wrong. I walked out the front door happy not to see my step-dad anywhere in sight. I walked the long walk to school. Trying not to look up. In my mind all I could think about was Ryo. I was hoping that if I didn’t look up then maybe, just maybe I would get lucky and run into him again. I was wrong. I got to school and was late for class because I was trying to walk slowly to see if he would find me. I was doing poorly in class and everyone could see it. I couldn’t think of anything else other than Ryo. It was like he was stuck in my head and didn’t ever want to leave. When school got out I was greeted by my friend Izumi.
“What was wrong with you in class it seemed like you were in some other place, you know away from everyone else.”
“It’s nothing.” I said
I walked a little faster in hopes of losing her. I didn’t want her to follow me and see Ryo. She always stole boys from me. Not this time, because this time she wouldn’t even know
Ryo existed. I was only five minutes away from home when Ryo came out of nowhere.
“What was wrong with you yesterday? I would think that someone like you would jump at the chance to live with someone like me. Not that I am saying there are a lot of people like you or whatever, it’s just that I thought maybe we could be friends but it kind of seems that you don’t even care if you see me.”
“I just met you yesterday. What do you want me to do live with you, because I can not live with someone of whom I barely know especially not someone of your kind?”
I would never let on about my feelings for him. I guess in a way I was scared that he wouldn’t like me the same way back. I just thought that maybe he could show he cared about me first then I would show him the true feelings I had for him.
“So what is my type?” he suddenly looked angry
“I just meant that you’re the type who thinks that they can get everything that they want when in reality everyone thinks that you don’t even deserve the things that you get.”
After I said this it sunk into my mind the extent of what I had actually meant and how it could affect someone. I looked him in the eyes and his innocence shown through into my heart. I felt the pain I had caused him sink deep into my soul. I hugged him as hard as I could to show my apologies and ran off. Too my relief I didn’t fall, which is really good because I would not want to land myself in the same situation as earlier where I was forced to break away and go home even though I knew it wasn’t safe.
I arrived at home with trembling legs and aching feet. This wouldn’t have been as bad if it weren’t for the fact that my step-dad was home. He knew that I was avoiding him but to my luck he didn’t know why, or at least I thought it was to my luck. He came up to me and got almost right on my face. He was about a half and inch away.
“Why are you avoiding me?” he asked with a slight tinge of mustard in his breathe
I looked down and started moving my feet.
“Are you going to answer me or not?”
“Not.” I said almost too afraid to stay there any longer
“What do you mean not?”
He grabbed me and slammed me into the corner he kicked me repeatedly until all of it was just a blur. I was still aware of what was going on because I could feel the pain but I was so scared that I couldn’t make out any of it. When he was satisfied with his work he picked me up and threw me outside into the alleyway next to our house. I hit a glass bottle and shards of glass pierced my skin with violent force. I shrieked in pain and passed out. Oh, how tired was I of passing out. I dreamt that everyone lived happily and that I was with Ryo, and we were married with two children of our own, one a boy and one a girl.
I awoke tired and drowsy and ran outside to Ryo’s place. It was time I made up my mind and stayed with the one I knew would never do anything to hurt me. I was limping the whole way and felt so much pain that it was almost unbearable. I normally would’ve collapsed by now but the momentum to be saved was in my head and I knew that in the long run this would be rewarding. I arrived at his house and rang the doorbell. The doorbell made the most exciting sound, kind of like an angel singing. The door was painted a sky blue and the rest of the house was white. It was like I was in the sky, it was even better when Ryo walked outside. He was dressed as though he had just been woken up. His plain white boxers seemed to have a certain glow to them. I would love to tell what else he was wearing and naturally I would if he was wearing anything else. His hair was tangled and un-brushed, his eyes were half open and he looked as though he was agitated to see me at his house. He suddenly looked better, I guess it wasn’t that he was agitated to see ME there it was just that he had just woken up.
“Uh, hey,” he said still half asleep, “what are you doing here?”
“I’m here to stay with you.”
“Ok, come on in”
He sounded half hearted as though he really didn’t want me there anymore.
“Where is your stuff?”
“I did not have time to pack any, I was trying to get out of my house before my step-dad came back home.”
“Why are you limping?”
“I think you know why.” I had a weird look on my face as though even I did not know the answer to this question.
“I do not, and I know you also do not, you know where you got the limp but you do not know why,” he paused for a second to see if I understood what he was saying, “I am correct, am I not?”
“You are.”
He grabbed my hand and gave me a full walkthrough of his house. He stopped at a door that was painted an alarming blue color, a blue that wasn’t sweet but at the same time wasn’t scary.
“You must never go in this door, do you understand?”
I shook my head yes and we continued walking hand in hand. He finally came to my room. We walked in and I was amazed beyond compare. It was the biggest thing I had ever seen. I looked at the wall of my new room and saw a big picture of me and him. It was a picture of the day when I met him I was standing looking and he was just looking straight ahead with his hair flowing. I can’t believe he got every detail right except for one thing, my face. It was happy.
“This part here,” I pointed to the smile, “I am happy, why you would draw me this way I was sad at that time not happy.”
“That may be so but you are happy around me.”
“You see my face.” he pointed, “I look as though I do not know you are there, but the truth of the matter is I knew that you were there looking.”
I looked at him; he had the most amazing look on his face. It was as though he was in a trance. I stood in front of him and he looked down at me. He had a tear in his eye, it was a tiny tear, but that tear made me feel as though I would do anything for him. I buried my head in his chest, and cried, I cried for him.
I knew that know with him I would have a happy life. I stayed at home with him for about a week or so and didn't go to school, every now and then I would think about my step-dad and how happy he must be without me there. It was about Christmas time now and I knew that it would be wrong not to go to see my step-dad. I knew he would at least want to know I was okay, or at least I thought he would. I got dressed and went outside into the freezing cold.
I got to my house and decided that I would look in the window before I went into the house. I wiped away some of the fog on the window so I could see through to the inside. He was sitting on the couch watching his TV show; he was drinking beer, and smoking something I would rather not mention. He seemed like he normally was, it was like he didn't even know that I was gone. I guess it must not bother him that much for his only child not to be home where I belonged. I decided that just looking in the window wouldn't be enough to really know if he cared or not. I went to the front door and knocked as soft as possible. I was hoping he wouldn't answer so I could leave and tell myself that he must not be home or something of that matter, even if I knew that I would be lying to myself.
He didn't answer and this alone made me happy. I started to walk away and I heard the door creep open just a little bit. I swung around as fast as I could to see if my ears were deceiving me. They were not, there was my step-dad, he was drunk and mean as always. I smiled a faint smile to see if he would smile back. He didn't. Instead he started walking towards me with a staggering walk. In the back of my mind I knew what was about to happen. I started running as fast as I could away from him but a loose brick in the street made me trip and fall giving him a chance to get closer to me. I lifted off of the ground and there he was standing over me like Ryo except this time it wasn't Ryo it was a devil. He pulled me inside and took me into his room, I knew I was about to get the beating of a life-time.
"You know I love you right?" he said with a big smile on his face
"Then treat me that way."
"I will tonight I will show my greatest deed of affection ever, besides who do you think the drunk driver who ran over your mother was? I had to get to you somehow; it was for your own good. You understand don't you," he paused, "my love?"
He put me on his bed and slipped of my garments one by one. He roped my hands and feet to the bed so he could do the same. He bent down over me and gave me a kiss. I tried to resist but as I did this he just slapped me in the face
"Calm down" he kissed me again this time he slipped a little tongue into my mouth
Before I knew it I was screaming as loud as I could. In my mind I was wishing it would all stop and in real life I was screaming for it all to stop.
"I would never do anything to hurt you, you know that don't you?"
Before I knew it was all over and I was back in my bed at Ryo's place. Ryo walked in and was immediately laying beside me being as comforting as he had ever been.
"Your safe now and you’re never leaving my side ever again."
"I just wanted to see if he even cared if I was gone," I was crying now and I didn't know why, I didn't mean to cause so much trouble."
"Emi, I l-love you.”
"You don't mean that, you can't."
"I do Emi and I will never let anyone especially your own step-dad do anything to hurt you."
"I believe you, but I must go now.
"You're not going anywhere, except home to be taken care of."
"I thought you said you didn't want me to get hurt."
"Just trust me; all you have to do is wake up."
"What do you mean wake up I am awake."
"No your not."
"B-but I"
"Just go to sleep." he said interrupting me
"Okay."
I closed my eyes and I woke up, except I didn't wake up in Ryo's I woke up in the hospital with a nurse yelling out into he hallway that I had woken up from my coma. My step-dad was out in the hallway looking as innocent as ever. I knew though what he had really done and I closed my eyes and wished, I wished that I could just go back to my dream. I did I dreamt forever. The last thing I heard was a doctor telling my step-dad I was dead.
Beside my death bed was my story "Butterfly" it started out with the words I saw him. He was standing as if he was an angel.
 F R E E Z E R 2-0 · Sat Dec 16, 2006 @ 08:18pm · 6 Comments |
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