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The Other Side of Kanami
Chapter one:
Strangers Don’t Always Say Hello?

Kanami walked outside looking around at the lovely night sky filled with beautiful bright stars and the wonderful glow of the moon. She sighed softly looking down. My name is Kanami. I’m… well I lost track of my age I’m around 24 to 26 but my appearance looks like a 10 year olds body. Doesn’t bother me much it’s been this way for ages. I am a human and an altar user I have the appearance of a human but the powers of an altar user. I have a few powers but I won’t go rambling on about them. I am usually wearing a black dress that goes oh about 5 inches above my knee and I have knee high stockings that match and good pair of regular black shoes. I wear a red chocker and a bluish black redemption stone (this keeps me….from…going too much into society …my past…is what hides me) I have lifeless terra cotta brown eyes and long dark ember hair. My face…is what you’d expect Pale and in the moonlight a little creamy. I always wear a long black leather jacket. My height is about 3’5-4’0ft tall. Yea I’m short seemly I got used to it. I slowly walked into a small city and nodded my head to a tall man with blonde slightly spiked hair who had blue eyes. “Hello Cloud…Kreana will be here later to speak with you. She has important new regarding you.” I relayed the message given to me and then walked towards a dark area and leaned against a tree. It must have been only 5 minutes before a man about 5’3 with long black hair wearing a headband and a long red cloak that matched it. Underneath he wore a pair of black pants and a long sleeve shirt and a three barrel gun with “Cerberus” written on the side of it. Interesting look…I thought to myself before hearing him say “dang...The suns brutal today”. I looked down. What are you thinking I know you could do something what are you waiting for… I finally walked over to the man saying a chant softly then waving my hand over him then stepped back bowing. “The sun shall not harm your skin anymore.” I went back to where I was and stood leaning against that same tree. There you go Kanami!! Good Job! I saw the man stare for a few minutes then grin and walk over to me. A grin or a smile? It’s been awhile since…I’ve seen such a thing because of something’s I have done. “What is your name?”
He asked in a kind tone. I sighed. I’m dreaming I must be dreaming. There’s no way….I’m not. I finally looked up and saw him standing there with that same smile with that same kindness. “Kanami. Kanami Yuta, and your own?” I asked. “Valentine, Vincent Valentine. I like your name.” “Thank you…” I spoke in a soft tone. Why do I have to sound like I do this kids voice. I didn’t mind staying this appearance but the sound of my voice? “I like your cute voice!” he said smiling. My face turned a light red as I stood there speechless hoping it would easily fade. I couldn’t help but blush. It’s….like he’s reading my mind and saying thing the opposite of what I think. He’s confusing me…and I really…don’t mind it.
“Thank…you…” I replied he stared at me for a second I think he was trying to see something. “Vampire…..Kanami is that your wish. To become someone like me” he questioned. I froze for a minute. How…how did he just look at me and see that how can he just know…he had to have looked at my thought…except I hadn’t thought about that in about 2 years. He either had amazing abilities or…just knew. “I…I have once entertained myself with the thought of becoming a vampire how did u know?” I inquired.” There is a sense of vampirism radiating off of you I only asked to see if u were one already or not…is that your wish?” he interrogated. I nodded “yes”. Please….why are you asking this…why are you making it so apparent I cannot have what I wish for… “Then Madam, Your wish is my command.” He announced and without hesitation walked over and placed one hand on the back of my neck and one on my lower back and lifted me to him and starred into my eyes. “Wha…what do you mean…” I asked frantically. What is he doing…his hands are warm to me? What am I saying….why is he holding me up? I love his black eyes. Stop getting of track. Wow….he’s strong. “You want to be Vampire…so. I shall grant you’re wish.” I nodded hesitatingly as he leaned closer. “Tell me if it hurts” he whispered into my ear then softly sank his fangs into my neck. I flinched slightly but I didn’t feel pain.
~~~~~~Flash-Back~~~~~~
I ran up to one of my only friends and hugged them. “Its time to say goodbye…and you…understand…I’m sorry” I ran back to my newest owner. I had been sold to the Family of Mesha. Mesha the family boss, her brother Senta, and others and another slave that was older then I and half vampire or at least that all the others knew. Senta took me into the other room and gnawed on me making sure he never took more then half of my blood. After awhile I stopped screaming the pain had left and I just flinched slightly when they bit into me. When I was at 10 I stopped my body and appearance growth and stayed looking 10. When I was 15 year of life I was able to kill most of the master with the help of Kreana and she did the biggest job of taking in Mesha as I finished off the others. After that she and I have stayed in touch. I was a little out of control after that and that one other friend…was murdered Kreana didn’t get there in time to save her and my own conscious so out of something I once loved a necklace and something my best friend loved made together my Redemption Stone.
~~~~~~End Flash-back~~~~~~
During this the more he drank the weaker I became the more lifeless I knew I was. I kept seeing my memories I past. Things I’ve said and things I’ve wanted to say. I eyes had slowly closed. He leaned up when my heart had stopped all breath was gone and he held a lifeless body. He then bit his lip and waiting for blood to drip down his chin then leaned down and kissed me letting his blood drain into my mouth like a waterfall. In less then five minutes my eyes had opened and I slowly kissed back and let his blood sliding down my throat. He lifted me back to my feet and made sure I could stand before letting go. “Do you feel any different” he questioned. I starred at him for a second then my body pulsated and fangs began taking over four of my teeth two on top and two on bottom. Thank you…I can feel it already the change…I thank you most for…the Kiss to be Reborn. Some may say it’s the Kiss of Death but I believe…its more to be reborn then dying entirely. Now I want to know…how I can repay you for this. This new life handed to me…I’VE GOT IT!! I looked over at him and smiled softly.” Do you have a home?” I asked kindly. I’ve smiled….oh how nice it feels. “No I believe I don’t…”
I smiled slightly more and waved him to follow me. “Then follow me” I said then began walking towards the home I resigned at. He looked at the grey home that stood in front of us most windows were covered with a dark curtains and leading him to a door with a symbol on the top. For the kiss, for the kindness, for the smile… ill give him…all I can!
“ this is…my home feel free to stay in any room mine is marked and the other are open except the one to the next of mine” I said after opening the door and walking upstairs him following shortly behind. “Thank you and, whenever you are want to go eat I shall take you hunting for your first time” he replied. I nodded then looked down and heard my stomach and looked back at him. “Umm….now…or whenever you would like.” I voiced. He smiled I shall take you but I’m not hungry myself. “He responded walked over and wrapping his cloak around me.” Hold on” he added. I held my arms around his neck and we disappeared appearing back into a small city like the country and looked around form the top of the building. He spotted a couple a man and a women and then pointed. “There are your targets now show me sneaky and get them without one scream” he requested.
I hastily stood and ran then appeared behind the couple and knocked them out as if I knew what to do before even coming here.
The adrenalin flew right threw me and my body moved with a second thought I felt so great.
Vincent appeared next to me and smiled clapping his hands softly. “Good job!” he said. Soon after I was allowed to feast and when I was done I looked at him and smiled.” Thank you” I answered and walked over and hugged my arms around his waist. “Thank you for everything!” I whispered. He smiled and hugged back and then spotted something and let go of me walking to the women on the ground and lifting something in a blanket.
I walked over and lifted part of the blanket. “A…Baby?” he said confusingly. Then he smiled and looked at me. “Let’s…Take care of him…together.” He stated smiling.
I blushed lightly “umm…sure….” He nodded “what shall his name be” he questioned me. I shrugged saying a name that popped in my mind “Rekashi?” I asked. Rekashi…it was a name in a fairy tale I one read about a young boy he did all eh can for the one he loved so dearly when really no one believe someone of his age could fall in love. Later they find out the young girl is also in love…with Rekashi and in the end they get married regardless of age or status. “Yes I Agree”, “like the boy from the old fairy tale” he added as if quoting my very thought. “Ready to go home” I asked. He nodded and added “Want to hold Rekashi?” I nodded and took him gently in my arms and walked next to Vincent home. A new guy a new baby a new beginning and I let it all happen….I don’t regret a single thing so tonight….I will start…smiling more often. And no more regretting! That night I opened the door next to my room and inside was a baby’s room and after I laid Rekashi to sleep I went into my room and took off for the first time my Redemption Stone and went to the living room to talk with Vincent.
We talked for so long that night I didn’t want to sleep I kept myself up just to make sure he’s still there. When I had finally awoken I was resting on his chest and one of his arms was around me and I was covered with a blanket. I smiled up at him then sneaked out and got him breakfast smiling.



Chapter Two: Adventuring Pains

I’ve taken care of Rekashi and dinner for him he’s now asleep and he’s so cute while he sleeps. I’m kind of worried…Mr. Vincent has been gone all done since I woke up, But its ok…its not like he has to stay with me…its just… he said…. Kanami looks away seeing the memory of him form the night before “we should raise him together…our own little Rekashi”. I can’t I can’t hold that memory in my head I have to just…break away its ok I can handle this on my own. I walk upstairs and rest on my bed starring at the necklace I ad taken off the night before. Every time I close my eyes I can just picture it, I can picture the pain and terror I caused that friend. Even thou in the past it haunts me daily. The blood that was all over my hands. It pains me to see….I never washed it off. When could I ever… I it’s all over now. I looked up and there he was. He lifted a hand towards me and led my into Rekashi’s room. “I don’t want you looking sad anymore Kanami…” he lifted down and picked up the sleeping baby boy instantly opening his handsome hazel eyes to us and cooing. My eyes began to water about only out of joy and happiness then I took Rekashi into my arms holding and cradling him, “thank you so dearly…my friend.” Vincent’s eyes flashed with confusion then he smiled warmly.” Thank you” I whispered. I looked down at the young boy in my arms then saw my hand and handed Rekashi to Vincent. I was slightly shaking then I ran down stairs to the kitchen sink turning the water to burning hot. Why…why this happening now why is I seeing this now…why…why didn’t I just….wash it off…the blood…the blood…of her…. My…best friend…I…I’ve got to get this taken care of…now… I lifted my hand into the water and it began to sting I grabbed a random rag and rub it against my bare hands hard. I continued for 5 minutes rubbing harder and harder whispering “get off my hands…get off my hands” tears fell down my cheeks and I continued to rub harder peeling my skin and cutting myself I finally stopped and grabbed another rag wrapping it around my hand to cover it then said a small spell to make sure it covered my hand. Why won’t it stop why wont it let go. It won’t let me be free. I went back upstairs and found Vincent looking down at the baby back in its bed and sleeping. He looked at me then looked back.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Vincent’s flashback~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
What’s happening to me? Why….father why are you doing this….please let me go. I was just 27 not like I could fight him and his little army of allies. I wasn’t strong enough to protect my first love….Lucrecia….Forgive me. Tears dripped down my face as then did there test before soon I was to be knocked out. Later about two weeks I believe they were done and had left or just stopped speaking. I could sense them…still nearby and I only had one wish for them. The angering wish of death filled my heart. I lifted up and my eyes turned pure black with fire inside them. This feeling I held was new but I began to change into this half dragon vampire like creature with dark hazing purple skin and wings like well a dragon. I began to brutally attack these men in hopes of destroying ever last one of them. Till I reached my father, the man that had taken the love of my life and don’t this to me. Like an instanced I reached for my gun. Cerberus key chain hanged form it and it had change from one barrel to three. I lifted it up and aimed it perfectly at my father. “You….shed her blood and I can smell it…HOW DARE YOU…you wont live another day…not on my watch.” I yelled at him then shot him three times. I fell to my knees finally completing my mission and breathing raggedly; the pain was vastly getting to me. Since then…I’ve been able to smell blood and know who it is from. And…I’ve been vampire and had that one dark side resign in me, his name….is Chaos
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~End Flashback~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Vincent starred at Kanami. “What happened?” he asked. Kanami shook her head with a slight hesitation. “Nothing, its fine” she said softly. Please its ok don’t worry about me …it’s too nice to know…you care….just please…dot find out…don’t look at my hand.
Vincent grabbed her hand and looked at her with caring eyes. “Show me…Kanami don’t lie to me I can smell the blood so just show Me.” he demanded. Kanami flinched and shook a little then unwilling taking off the little bandage she had made for herself shaking a little more when she saw the blood “her blood won wash off, Vincent I tried but it wont wash off…”she said shaking in fear. Vincent hugged her lifting her up into his arms. “Kanami….that isn’t her blood anymore. Its ok she has forgiven you…..if she was a true friend she has forgiven you…”he said calmingly into her ear. Words so comforting…yet so painful I…I don’t even. Know what I’m feeling whether its regret or…just…kindness warming my heart.
“…tha…thank you…Vincent…Kun” I said softly holding on to him then I leaned back looking into his dark black eyes. “Anytime” he responded with a kind smile. I suddenly felt the urge to do something and falling for my urges once again I leaned closer and softly kissed Vincent. Wha…what am I doing. Who do I think I am… kissing him like this? Before I knew it he had kissed back softly and gently holding me. It stunned me how great this felt the fact I was even able to do something so courageous surprised my heart. This one chance….please let this be a chance…that one chance…I never really got….to really …love.
I pulled back slowly and looked at him with kindness in my eyes. His smile warmed my heart and I could feel my heart race and my breathe beginning to slow. Is…is this how it feels? Is this what they say…if …true love? If…if this is…I…I can’t ever stop…this feeling…..its taking over…and honestly….I doesn’t mind….not now…not for a long time…
My eyes stayed locked on his my turning more amber and lively then had ever before. Vincent kissed me once again softly and deeply. I smiled sweetly kissing back softly. Wishing time could just freeze as I now know…I am in love and I now understand…he…will always be everything to me. Always and Forever.
Vincent pulled back and smiled at me slowly letting me down to my feet then placed his hand on my cheek. I smiled taking a deep breath “C…Can I tell you something? He nodded. “Anything Kanami, anything” he said in a kind tone. I took a deep breathe and still was unable to breathe right my heart racing knowing what I was about to say. “I…I…Vincent I…I Love You Vincent-Kun!” A blank silence came over us and my heart continued to race as he held me and starred into my eyes. A warm smile curled on his lips and his eyes became a little more of a lively black. “Kanami…I Love you too!!” he said with kindness in his voice his words echoing in my head.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Kanami’s Memories~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I looked up into the dark brown eyes of a man about 3 inches taller then me smiling so warmly. “I love you Kanami-Chan!” “I Love you too Kaza-kuun” I whispered back kissing his cheek cutely. After that we began dancing to our favorite song. Sanctuary by Utada Hikaru. The music echoed I my ears as well as all his kind words hoping life would not take me by surprise and that hope is what killed him. About two minutes later a man with long silver hair slammed his sword threw Kaza-kuun killing him instantly and splattering his blood on me as the tears began to flow and drench my clothes. The man slashed my arm yelling imposter and shortly after I fell unconscious into the deepest sleep known to me. it hurt most to know I couldn’t hear those words again….those three words I loved and the way I would whisper them back into his ear and see him smile brightly. The light of my life was gone….I would forever be alone. That is what I promise myself. I woke up at the home of my fathers and laying snuggled under my favorite covers tears on my cheeks and pain striking me every second. When was this to end? When I was reborn holding myself my whole life started over in the place of another’s and that was you my first owners….my first masters home.
These memories flashed in my head and striking my eyes and causing me to fall unconscious. Vincent freaked out held me close and cried “wake up please….wake up my dear Kanami!!” I heard this threw my slumber till I was put on my bed and tucked in. Vincent kissed my forehead and held my hand waiting minute after minute for my eyes to open. Oh how I wished this didn’t happen oh how I wish we could just be smiling but the memories…they strike fear to my heart and I cannot stop them. These will kill me so…so I have to get away I have to run like the chicken I am. To save him from the pain of watching me go. To save him from me.
It had been about 4 hours of him waiting so patiently holding my hand calmly ever so often kissing it and whispering “please wake up…please be ok”. My eyes slowly up a new grayish auburn color looking at him. I smiled and hugged him kindly then slipped out of the bed letting go of him. “Are you ok?” Vincent asked calmly. I nodded and held his hand kissing it lightly then let go. “…I c…I cant stay with you…I want you to stay at this home and live bu…but I have to go.” The words slowly stuttered out and I held my other hand tightly. “W…why what’s wrong Kanami?” he questioned. I slowly walked out of the room and started walking down stairs him following me. “Because I wont let myself go on if I already know I’m going to hurt you. My past is mine and it shall not pain the only one I truly love.” I said in a strong yet resistant tone. What am I thinking I mean….I…i'm leaving him…so so I don’t hurt him….i'm…I’m going to miss him…so much…I Love You Vincent-Kuun! “Don’t do this….don’t do this Kanami!” he said in a sadden tone. “I…I can’t help it Vincent….I…I can’t stand by seeing you worry I wont allow you to be sad because of me. Please…please forget me.” I whimpered tears falling down my cheeks matching his. He looked at me then grabbed my hand and held it. “I can’t forget someone I love. Kanami…please …my sweet Kanami please stay with me” I said great sadness and honesty in his voice. Kanami looked back at him and wrapped her arms around his waist resting her head on his upper chest tears streaming down her cheeks. “Vincent…I...I just don’t want to hurt you….is…Is this really what you want….please ……I need to know.” I asked still whimpering. Why does he make me feel so sad when I’m trying to save him from my own terrible self? H…how come I want to stay so bad with him…..till the end of my life. I don’t even know why he cares so deeply….especially about me…I…I love him….but….if I hurt him….it would kill me. He’s killing me with kindness and I don’t want to let go of that….I…I’m not going to lie…..I’ll never want to leave him not in this world now in any there its who I am its why I am here talking to him being what I was never. Happy. My heart….is finally beating and I want to let go of the purpose….who am I kidding I must be crazy.
Silence took us (except in my mind of course) minutes passed still silence. I looked upon his teary eyes and he looked in mine. “Of course…..of course I want u to be with me always till the end of time, Kanami I meant what I said I love you!” she responded he leaned down and kissed me softly holding me close. I kissed back holding my arms around his neck smiling softly. “Forever…..I shall stay with you….” I whispered. He smiled and held me. We stayed like that still the next morning holding each other keeping each other safe.
The next night came and both of us were playing with Rekashi and his favorite toys and games. We all were sitting with little toy race cars and racing them across our carpet and all of a sudden he looked at Vincent and said “are you and mommy married. Like eternal bond” being only about 1 he had known to talk surprising us both. “Umm well…no….Rekashi we aren’t” Vincent responded. I was kind of blushing and kind of sad but so surprised. Rekashi then added “why not you too make good mommy and daddy. I giggled slightly and Vincent laughed smiling. “Aye…yeah we do.” He said softly. He smiled reassuringly which gave me this strange feeling something was going to happen regardless I set it aside and continued playing with a Rekashi till it was time to put him in bed and then I kissed his forehead smiling and walked slowly into the kitchen.
Vincent followed behind me smiling and sat next to me at the bar. “Remember the couple that we got Rekashi from?” he asked. “Yes. Why?” I responded