Emotion. The horrible feelings behind everyones mind. Every one wnts to rid themselves of it but are unable to. Within my mind i can not feel. I wish to be sad to show i exist. I wish to feel pain to syill show i bleed. I dont like to feel happy because i know it wont last. I hate to feel love because it only ends in tears. I wish to not exist because i hae no purpose. My life is a shell slowly becoming hollow. Ther is so much destruction in the world arouns us it sickens me. Men and women do not think before they act and have caused there downfall. My eyes burn because it pains me to see the people around me. My mind aches because of the pressure of society and the thoughts of many. My hand shake because i want to stop the hearts of the idiotic and ignorant. My heart continues to beat because of my lazyness to fullfill my actions. Within my mind is a never hole constantly sucking in every feeling I hold no thought, feeling, or emotion for a long time because i can not bare it. Over a couple of years i have gone to three funerals over people i knew and cared for Yet i could not cry. I would never be able to see these people again and i could care less I wish to hold a cross in my left hand and a sword in the right The cross to represent the purity of the earth The sword for the power and order needed to keep things in order The so call freedom people seem to have is being taken slowly and without notice but know one can do anything about it. Our world is over populated and is sure to die. The cause of rain is mother earth weeping under the pressure we have caused her. Tis why i think people such as mass murderers and evils insane people are necessary. If fewer people were to die we would all die. Medicine, Health, and the healing and disease are all unecessary inventions of man that are destroying all of us. Hitler was needed in this world because he was to help keep the world in balance by causing so much death but his effort was in vain because he didnt kill enough.
I have found out My purpose It is to grow up Become stronger and to kill the ignorant and relieve the earth of the unessesary we kill daily and it ruins are eviroment further Humans are the gods screwed up project and for now out of control Our hole existance should be destroyed and start over on a cleen slate. We were ment to live on the circle of life To eat and be eatin. But our advancements have taken us out of the circle and now we are the selecter from afar killing and eating what we can get our hands on We are the most impure form of glutiny. All humans are. We devour everything in site People try to avoid the seven deadly sins But We are all of them We are the living form of sin Our Greed for money Our lust for others Our glutiny upon food Our wrath to others Our Envy of power and others Our sloth to do anything And our pride that destroys us entirely. All of the sins rolled into a fleshy body It makes me sad to know the truth It makes me sad to know that i must kill others when grow up It makes me sad that so many must die for a cause that will happen no matter what people do to stop it Men, Women, and children live there lives wanting to be clueless because the end will be unpleasent. Mother earth wont be able to fix herslf aft the catostrophic events that will unravel in the end Bringing us back to the utter darkness that lays in wait. I wissh to keep typing because i want evry thought held in my mind to sptll out right now but I cant. Reading over the words in my mind just makes more depressed than ever And I leave with one last thing It sadens me to know that when you read this Your false hope will be sucked from your face and you will be dragged back to my state of mind you have so tried to avoid stare I shed one tear for the loss of a friend Only one stare
Peddler · Sun Nov 19, 2006 @ 05:43am · 3 Comments |