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Life has been pointless for me...
in recent years
I forgot what it exactly was like to be happy...

They say third time's the charm
so...I'll try it again tonight...and hope I dont have to wake up to this nightmare again...

I looked it up
and it said an OD on tylenol should take arround 12 hours
so I might collapse at school...or I could just not wake up...either way its fine by me...

As long as I somehow get relief from this inevitable spiral of stupidity people call life...

If I were gone...it would help alot of people...
my parents could support my brother though collage
my friends wont have me to drag them down
She would be happier without me arround
Christian and Ricky could get together without me screwing it up
The quartet would only have one cello in it...
The orchestra would actually be balanced...
my parents wouldent have to worry about me...or have to take care of another person in the house...
and there are probably lots more...but thats the jist of things...

And besides...people are always loved more when they're gone...so maybe someone would actually love me for a change...