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11:30AM
Dad was bitching again v.v
He said that he's gonna tell Neil that i'm a worthless peice of s**t and that i don't do anything and that i eat all the food and some other things. Then i told him to stop bitching and he started slaping my arms which kinda hurt but meh..
He keeps saying that things aren't gonna last long when i move in with Neil. He said that after a while Neil will start to hate me and we'll get in alot of fights and since Sonya has known Neil longer then i hv that she'll take Neil's side and most likely kick me out of the place. And then i'll be alone in the streets and stuff. That won't happen Neil wouldn't do that to me, neither would Sonya.

I'm excited for tonight tho cuz Neil said that he's gonna phone me tonight YAY!!
But untill then ima be bored as hell. I know i can work on a pic that i've been working on for 3 days now. i just gotta do the background then i'm done and i can give it to Neil!!

Ummm i almost have everything i need packed (into a tub thing) to move except for a couple things that i use everyday. The tub is almost full so i think i can fit everything into it and it's not that heavy, I can pick it up and i'm as weak as hell xD
I keep looking around my room wondering if theres anything else that i can bring with me but i dunno what else to bring.

But thats all for now folks XÞ
Oh yes one more thing...

I LOVE YOU NEIL!!!

buh byes

xX~*.:§Becca§:.*~Xx

4:00PM
We had company over one of my dad's friends. first thing she said when she came in the house was "So i heard that u are moving in with ur bf" and then she goes on and on about how i'm ******** up my life and that i'm stupid and how Neil is gonna beat me over and over again when i move in with him and that he only wants me too move in with him b/c he only wants to hv sex with me. and that he doesn't give a s**t about me and that he's gonna throw me out after a month or two of living there and how he was only pretending to like me when i met him and that hes actually a completely different person.
So yeah i went into my room and i can still hear her out in the living room talking about how retarded i am and how Neil is a pervert and other things like that.
I'm so ******** pissed off right now i wanna ******** kill her and everyone else that puts me and Neil down or at least tries to. I'm so ******** pissed off i'm almost at the point of crying.
I really want to talk to Neil right now...I need to talk to him.
God damn tears i ******** hate them >.<

xX~*.:Becca:.*~Xx