This is to a dog thats almost human. A dog that has protected me and my family for 11 years. The dog that also saved many of my birds and got rid of the racoons. Through storms you where there for me by my side when i was scared. You loved my youngest sister the most but you were everyones dog. Never had you bitten a stranger but you always scared away the unwanted people that entered our home. Though you physically never had puppies and had no experince of being a mother you treated us like your pups. You were our defender and chased away the bears. You protected me when a dog came after me. You were always like a member of our family. I our eyes you werent just a dog, a thing or a beast of any sort, you were family and you were almost human. Yes you killed but you killed for our protection and you always did as we asked. But the only thing that didnt make you human was your loyalty to us. Never in our lives will we find another like you. We will never find a human that will always be by our side no matter what we are. We will never find some one who doesnt care who we are or of what we do. You were always by our side. I cant remember much about when you were young but i do know you loved us all. Never had you strayed from your family cause you loved us. When stormy died you became sad and lonely but it didnt stop you from leaving us. Instead you were almost killed trying to save us. No matter how many times you were hurt you got up with all the energy in the world and you fought for us again. You never lost your energy and you never showed sign of sickness. But when you suddenly started shaking and stopped eating we knew something was wrong. You stopped being the way you were. Your energy was gone and the real you disappeared. We thought you were just sick but that wasnt true. You slowly died inside and never got up. we feed you and watered you by hand and you would whine and look at us. After sometime the docter gave you meds and you got right back up to your old self but then came crashing down. On New Years you went after the fire works like you use to but this time it was different because it was only half hearted. You didnt have the energy to go after it and your old self started showing more. These past few days i have sat by you and listened to your breath that has slowed and has a faint rattle to it. As i watched you walk i saw you were in pain and you could no longer support yourself. But that wasnt the only thing that pained you. Though it is said animals dont have souls i swer you do. You were pained cause you could no longer protect your pups, your family. I watched you and feed and watered you by my hands just hoping i could help you. Instead of you protecting me im protecting you and helping you. Now i geuss im not the one whos human now and you are. Im crying inside for you dear pet. Cause i love you like i would love a person of my family like a human. And it kills me to see my family die. Today was and is a sad day because today the once 300+ pound dog that i could have never move i could pick up with ease. Today i learned a horrible virus had consumed your body and was quickly killing you. Patches my dear dog, you know your dying. And you know we wont let this cancer kill you. Instead you will die with no pain at all but remember one thing. To us you are human. To us you are family. And we know you will always be here with us. Right now i see you right by my side as i type this. Your asleep, snoring and saddly your going to wake up and feel pain. But your by my side and i know you will always be there. If not in life then in death.
This journal is dedicated to Patches
Though she was my sisters dog
i loved her all the same
and i know that death
is just part of lifes game
you are a human
no matter what people say
and i cant wait
till i see you on my day
 Ishira Tsubasa · Tue Jan 04, 2005 @ 01:42am · 5 Comments |
