I'm a silly person always chasing after things that are inevitably impossible. Why? I didn't think I would've had a choice, it was all bound to happen anyway. People can't live happily when there's something unfinished in the past that they've left behind or are denying the fact that they really need something by ignoring it and keeping it inside of them. I guess we all fall victim to circumstances like these at one point or another in our lives...
My self control is so amazingly weak that it makes me want to punch myself in the face sometimes >_>; Some things were never meant to be and then there are some things are near impossible without a pure sense of dedication. Right now, I'm having a hell of a time distinguishing these two x_x; I know... I know I "should" shut up and forget it all. But you know what? I can't, my conscious won't let me... I'm sorry
It's sad really... how I haven't enjoyed a single day of my life ever since that day. Yea, maybe I was living a dream and maybe it was just blinding happiness... but I miss it. I miss being able look up at the sky and slap a smile across my face whilst being filled with happiness and joy.
I'm a attention whore, sorry to say. I can't help it really, it's just who I am, I yearn for affection and the caring of others but at the same time I always have a feeling to care for others as well. Maybe they can cancel out? Meh, I'm not feeling too optimistic right now. ~_~
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