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I realized today, I am a coward and I'm always doubting myself even when it comes to small things. I finally finished my second profile and was proud of it and thought "I can finally join the profile whores forum". So I clicked on the forum link, went to Gaia discussions, and finally went to the profile section. Everything was good untill i clicked on the link and saw their banner and I was all "Whoah their banner is really cool" - eek - by then I was somewhat nervous thinking, what if they don't accept me since now i feel like a mediocur designer. I scrolled down and read the rules -the usually things to do- and funally saw the links to a few of the staffs profiles. I started browsing through them and my stomach got queasy I felt like crying. All the time i spent on the profile felt useless when i looked at them. I got choked up and left the forum, I couldn't even click on any links i sat with my head on my desk for ages. Well not really, I just left and came to write in my journel relieves stress and other things. I realise I'm not as good as a designer as I thought I was and seriously that's a blow to pride sweatdrop Now that I've written all of this down, I'm going to take a deep breath and sign up for the profile whores staff list. I scared shitless, but who gives a damn certainly nobody else but me. Ja ne Inu-kun thanks for giving me a spot to place down my thoughts. Heh...I rhyme -dances-