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It has been two years since I last wrote, and two years since I have visited Gaia for more than five minutes…

Things look the same but everything feels weird to me. I am still in shock over inflation prices. And, it is no surprise everyone moved on too because of changes in life.

I am disappointed the Marshall plush I made disappeared, never coming back into my hands as it was suppose to. Maybe it was fate? Things happen and everything can’t be perfect. And with the pandemic being in our lives today, things will be different for us all. Normality will come, but it feels as though causious baby steps still.

So far this year, I made a few changes in my life. I quit Facebook in February. It was the best decision I have ever made because I joined Facebook in it very beginnings, maybe half-a year after it was created. It was a platform for keeping up with friends you made in college and also a way to look into the good looking fellows who go to your school. With a rise of spam and word vomit on Facebook, I found myself unhappy and avoiding it more and more. I spent months without logging into that site in 2020, so I knew for my own well being I needed to let it all go. All the likes, the friends, the memories.

My interaction with friends is solely on Discord in a small chat. I admit I do miss the Marshall Discord chat from time to time, but I have nothing to add to the conversations anymore in there.

I am not much of a gamer as I use to be. I actually plan to sell some of my video games in the future. I not thought of buying a Nintendo Switch, but it is tempting. But also I take into account ADULTING. All the bills to pay, etc. *lol*

Earlier this year my grandparents’ home was finally sold, which lessened a headache for my family and I. Having to wait for too many years for a relative to finally get over her grief and allow the home to be listed for sale, the whole ordeal was torture. So I would never wish this kind of experience on anyone. Definitely go with a mindset of give away belongings while you are alive, or do the Marie Kando logic thing.

Right now, I live my life day to day. I help my family out a lot when needed. For a long time I was having to babysit nieces and nephews. Ever since the pandemic, babysitting slowed and I am getting to be more independent again.

I am trying to make myself the priority but it has been hard. I care too much that I always put myself last… I do hope this be one thing I can correct this year for myself.

And kpop is nice. Ever since the Classical FM station went off the air, I have been listening to kpop when I am in my car, going for a drive or errands. I guess I am ARMY. Kinda awkward to say. I have no bias since I would be considered an ‘unnie’. So embarrassing, I know!

Either way, I am glad I was introduced to BTS and that their music is trying to heal, make a positive impact on us all. Really, today it seems there is too much negative going on around us. We need and deserve more positivity, good vibes, and hope. To have faith that everything will work itself out.

It was heartbreaking when [JK] passed. And I have forgiven him in my heart. I am glad I was given time to step away from here to sort out things, and of course the pandemic was something that kept me in check, knowing what is important in my own life. I think [JK] is happy that he didn’t have to go through all the drama of last year and he be cheering us all on, in support of what we all do. I do miss him still, it is okay.


Personally…
Twitter: scullylam
Discord: scurry #5908
Instagram: scullylam

As for my Deviantart, I haven’t decided what I want to do with it. That also includes my Etsy shop. I have been displeased with both sites so I had been brainstorming for years of what to do. I am still in that stage today.


Is this a return back to Gaia? Not really. I wondered if I still recalled my password or if my account has been hacked. *lol* But maybe in the future I will come around more.?