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I've always known that I am a clingly girlfriend. I like to be with my boyfriend all the time, and if I'm not with him, I want to be on skype with him or texting him or something. I just want to be talking to him. I constantly want to be snuggling with him or kissing him. I want him to constantly be holding me and I want to do things with him. I think it's because he's so wonderful. I wish that he could see himself the way that I see him, maybe then he would be able to understand why I am clingy.

I don't know if is truly a bad thing. It means that I really do care, and isn't that what everyone wants? To know that someone actually really does care? To like a crazy extent? I know that when he calls me by a cute little name like his hunny, or when he says 'I love you' first, or when I feel completely exposed and he tells me that I'm beautiful, it makes me feel special.

I really am so lucky that he asked me to be his. He's so special. Today I got to see him. At one point, I was clinging to him as he was shopping and I smiled because he let me cling to him and he didn't seem to mind. It hit me that he's mine and that I'm allowed to cling on him in public (to an extent of course).

He just makes me so happy. I can't describe the joy that I get from him. When I get a text from him I want to respond right away so that I can hear from him again. And when I'm with him I always catch myself looking towards him. And I want more than anything for him to look back at me. But when he does I look away because I don't want him to know that I was looking at him.

I want to lay with him while we watch a movie. I want to kiss him and feel the warmth of his body next to mine. I want to do things with him that I thought I wouldn't be doing because I trust him. I want to cuddle him to sleep all the time. I want to put my head on his chest, I want him to wrap his arms around me, I want to fall asleep to the sound of his heartbeat and I want to fall asleep feeling safe and loved. I want to wake up to him sleeping and still holding me. I want to kiss him and give him sleepy snuggles as I fight sleep.

And if I'm not with him, I want to be on skype talking at all hours of the night. I want to be watching him as he lays down and I want him to be the last person that I say anything to. I want him to be the last thing that I see before I sleep. I can't explain how wonderful it is to wake up and have him on skype still. I get to wake up and see him and it always makes me want to cuddle him even more. I enjoy playing with his hair. It's always so soft. And that's one of the things that I always want to do the most while I watch him on skype. Missing him really is wonderful. It makes the days that I get to see him so wonderful.