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Have you ever mentioned some stuff jokingly, convincing someone you made it up, because it was a problem?
A problem you were afraid of and you want to ignore but you cant.
You just want to tell someone without them knowing?
I have. It seems Iv'e done it a lot.
I just have issues telling people, especially you, about these things.
I don't want to make you suffer for this, it's my burden you know?
My past, people and things I want, or never want to happen again.
It's just...I love you.
And, I know this problem isn't my fault...but I know it will hurt you, and I don't want that.
I'm sorry if some days I just don't want to be touched at all, I just have problems.

On another note...There's this other thing... I haven't told anyone...
Its the reason I even watch Doctor Who really...

They capture what he was like then...
When I knew him before.
I should have known when I saw him on the street in Boston that day...We have both changed. Its been centuries for both of us.

It was true back then. Our feelings.
Now, it's just... memories?

Ever scene then... He has always seemed more...angry I guess.

Just stupid things like that.

I didn't even see this video, I just heard it while browsing facebook earlier, and I cried.
http://youtu.be/Fsp0WCaHWs4
That's why it takes so long for me to trust someone.
Every time I do, They leave me, Hit me, or just change, or lie...or...i don't know.
More often than not its a combination of them...

That's why it took me so long to say I love you.
I didn't want to say it and risk getting hurt.

But I want you to know that I do love you. So much.
And I remember what you said. I know you meant it, and I'm so glad.

I love you.