Oh hi there, Gaia!
So, A lot has changed since my last journal entry. Well, even though it was not long ago, I still changed a lot . c:
I'll just explain events that happened recently, and what they changed in me. :l
1. I threw a party a couple weeks ago. Well... "Party" being, I invited a few people, most people ended up canceling and it turned into 7 people drinking and talking... Anyway, they all had boyfriends except me and another friend of mine there. Ended up, they all kept talking about their boyfriends and gossiping about how awesome they are.. I , obviously, don't have a boyfriend right now.. and I was just drinking my a** off while none of my 'good friends' really paid much attention to me. I kept asking them to take drinks with me but no one was listening. I ended up crying a lot cause I was so smashed and one of my friends insulted me... It was overall a horrible night and it all happened in my house so I wasn't able to leave...
This changed :
- It helped me get over my ex a bit more..
- I'm a lot more silent since then
- I'm a lot more secretive when it comes to my friends now.
- I became a bit more confident with myself
2. I read perks of being a wallflower, which really resonated with me , overlooking the fact that it's now considered somewhat a 'classic'. In the book, they talked about many themes that revolve around my life , and it made me see things in a different perspective.
This changed:
- I now listen to korean music less
- I care less about what people think of me
- I'm a lot more 'chill'
3. Confrontations with some people...
This changed:
- I used to try to act more 'preppy' to 'impress' one of my friends. Now, I just don't give a s**t what he thinks anymore.
- I dyed my hair red
- I care even LESS about what everyone thinks.
Also, Ive been having 'anxiety' and stuff recently.. like, random head rushes and idk.. it's hard to explain @_@... Ohwell. I hope they dont become more frequent.
 The NAZI cupcake · Wed May 30, 2012 @ 05:01am · 0 Comments |
