yep so i think i just made some one up set who i didnt mean too. i am really sorry if you are reading this. just trying to avid fights. im getting really tired of screwing up the good things in my life. i want to be happy. my name means bringer of happiness but i cant seem to make myself happy. i pretend to be happy out of habit. maybe one day i will be happy. all the time not just every once and a while. i want to be able to be by my self and not feel lonley. even when there are people here i feel lonley. just with you am i not.
*sigh* i dont know what im doing anymore. i dont think i ever did. thats life i guess.
i really do love you. but this is what i do. ruin things. with everyone and everything.
over the stupidist things too.
untill another day i suppose.
im done crying for now. got all that out the other day. it will probably be months till i can again.
 Pink Panda Passion · Tue Apr 24, 2012 @ 08:47am · 1 Comments |
