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A) The chilling breeze rolls in as I open a window. It's pretty hot in the house, and I don't plan on roasting anytime soon. I hate being hot. I stick my head fully out the window, letting my hair lazily flow along with it. I just noticed; it smells a bit like smoke out here. Gross. I gag as I climb back in and close the window fast. "The world needs to be cleaner." I think out loud. I guess I thought out loud pretty loud, since my mom from two rooms away comes over.

"What was that hun?" I shake my head. "Nothing. Just thinking." She smiles and thinks of something to say, so her trip wasn't for nothing. "Dinner will be done soon. 'Kay?" She hops away happily like a child, and I sigh. Mom is a weirdo sometimes. But that's okay. I'll live. I trudge over to my desk by my bedside and pull up a chair. Along with that, I grab a paper and pencil from my trapper and set it on the desk. I want to start planning some strategies for the newest game I got.

After I get the usual pattern, I try it out. That's when I really start coughing. I was so engrossed into my plan that I never noticed my coughing before; it became as normal as breathing. I looked over to my door, and to my surprise was a trail of smoke entering in from the hallway. Something inside me just bursts; I panic. I nearly fall trying to get out of my chair, worried at what I see. I crawl on my hands and knees and the warm hardwood floor and continue on into the hallway. The smoke is thicker here, and it is even harder to breath. My eyes sting as the smoke inter fears with my sight. I crawl even farther into the smoke, heading towards the kitchen. I'm finally in there when suddenly, I start crying. Dunno why, I just feel like that's what I should do.

I feel cold tears running down my face as I expect the worst- and I was right. My mom is collapsed on the floor with a devilish smile on her face. Her cloudy eyes are open, looking straight at me. "Mom! Mom! Can you hear me?" I shake her shoulder and start coughing again. The fire has engulfed the entire wall, and it looks like it started from the oven. Except... it doesn't look like an accident. There is a can with oil spilled across the floor. Only me and my mom were home. Dad was at work.
I understand now.

I laugh hysterically, letting the fire inch closer to me. I can faintly hear sirens outside, but I don't care. Mom finally has done what she said she would- kill this family, little by little. I don't mind dying really, I never really have. I finally get to see the rest of my family. I lay in the spilled oil with my eyes closed, and a smile on my face. Maybe the world will be cleaner now. Where I am heading, that is.

C) "OH NO!" I shout at Kenton in my usual crowd pleaser voice. He dunked a basket with the basket ball that he stole from me. Just another gayilicious day at my driveway. "You got prob wit dat BOI?" He gets in my face and I swear he's trying not to laugh. "NO DAWG. I DON'T." He laughs his gay laugh, and so do I. We stop to rest in the grass to catch our breath. We then play the game that we usually do; point out things that look messed up or weird in any kind of way. It's pretty cool. Kenton points out a couple clouds that look like boobs, and I laugh. I point out a sign that is unusually short at the neighbors house, and we pretty much stop after that. Kenton owns at that game anyway.

"So." He speaks, swaying his hips back and forth. "Up for another go? I bet I'll beat you." I shake my head fast in all directions. "Nu-uh!" We run towards the ball and that's when my worst nightmare happens; we bump our heads together. I am horrified. I hold back my pain, but I just can't; my girlyness curse takes over, and it just pours out. I wail, as loud my lungs are capable of. It's not that it hurt, it's just a reflex sorta thing. I start to lower my crying, just enough that I can hear Kenton trying to talk to me; he's seen this before, but never, not ever, has it been this bad. I am starting to choke in my own tears. Breathing is almost impossible, and I can't see anything. All I know is that this is the last basketball I'll ever be able to play. I start to feel dizzy on top of it all and finally, I just see black, and I feel a big crash to the back of my head. Goodbye Kenton , I'll see ya later.

E) "Woo! Pick us next!" My mom screams next to me in hopes to get a free elephant ride. "Pick us! Pick us!" My mom can be annoying sometimes. And you know what? This is one of those times. I don't really appreciate getting my ear drums burst. The guy holding the microphone waves his hand over the audience, and has a constipated look on his face. "Hmm.. Who should I pick.." He says. The crowd roars, but you can still hear my mom. She jumps up from her seat and screams. "US!" He laughs and points in our direction. "How about that young lady over there?" I look around to find everyone pointing at ME. Ugh, not what I planned. My hairs going to get messed up, I just know it. My mom beams and looks at me. "Let's go honey!" She grabs my hand and practically drags me over to the stage. After we get on, pretty much the whole audience dissolves into just my dad. They only came for a free ride, anyway. She looks up to the giant elephant next to the stage, and laughs. "This will be fun. I love elephant rides!" She gets on after the guy brings the necessary stairs and such, and then it is my turn. I am not looking forward to this. I get on roughly and sit behind mom. She looks like she just won 1 million dollars. I don't get her sometimes, either. She brakes into a laughing fit even before it starts moving. I face palm.

Finally, the elephant starts moving slowly, and picks up speed once it goes down a mini hill. My mom throws her hands in the air as if it were a rollercoaster, and screams. I sigh. "Oh mom..." That's when something really scary happens- and no, my hair didn't get messed up, don't worry- but I start to slip. Did I mention I don't like heights? Well, I don't. I start to freak, screaming in short yelps. Mom laughs without looking at me and says, "It's just a ride dear, you'll be fine." I know its not fine, since I am slipping at even even faster rate as the elephant goes down a hill. Every bump slips me farther and farther off, until finally I am unable to hang on.

The last bump sends me down to the ground. It takes me about 10 seconds to fall to the ground. I land painfully on my foot. Great. This is just great. "Hey mom, at least I didn't die." I shout trying to reasure her.I think I speak too soon, because I notice I am directly under the elephant. I hear mom screaming. "Baby? Honey? Where'd you go?!" I don't think she enjoys her free ride anymore. I don't know. Just a guess. I look behind me to see that the elephant continued walking. "He's going too slow, I can get out of the way i time." I whisper to myself. Only thing is, I can't move my body.

Something happened when I fell. I'm suddenly scared... more scared than before. I sit there unable to move. I can't believe I have to watch my death. This is not right. I cry with the tears running down my face, ruining my makeup I put on this morning. I watch as the giant leg lifts up, hangs right above me, and crushes down. Stupid elephant ride.

G) I think education is a very important thing to have in life. I tell myself this a lot when I see kids showing complete ignorance. I know I told myself that at least seven times today. Right now I'm on a field trip. We are learning the process a meat grinder goes through. Pretty interesting if you ask me. No joke, I'm not being sarcastic. I wish kids would actually appreciate times like these. It's not everyday where you learn such valuable information such as this.

I look over to the back of our line and see people messing around. Nobody is actually listening to the great tour this guy is giving! No wonder why I have such a high IQ. I sigh and continue to engage in the wonderful things there are in the musuem. Finally, we walk over to one door. It is made of pure steel with a small window at the top. The tour guy turns to us and continues speaking. He points at the door. "This, is where the meat grinder is. I was going to have us all go inside and observe it more cloesly, but an unfortunate tradegy happened, so I was told to give out worksheets instead."

Everybody but me moans as he hands out worksheets with a detailed picture of a meat grinder. I don't mind doing this kind of work, but I wished that I could go inside to see the actual meat grinder. After we sit down to work on the worksheet, one person raises their hand. "May I use the bathroom?" Another hand shoots up. "Yeah, me too!" eventually, it turns into a bathroom frenzy where everybody "has" to go to the bathroom. The man sighs and agrees.

Although he knows they are faking, he allows them anyway. By law he is supposed to take care of the kids for whatever they need, for any accidents are purely his fault. He walks with them to the bathroom and leaves me behind. I guess I was the only one who wasn't lying. But, I'm excited now. Nobody is here, but me and that door. I neatly put my worksheet on the bench and walk over to the door. There is a pasted on DANGER! sign on the door. Pretty pathetic. I could do better. I rip it off and stuff it in my pocket. Perhaps my folks at home would like some evidence at my bravery. I smile at the thought of the information I'm actually going to learn.

Something suddenly catches my attention. I didn't notice it before, but on the wall beside the door is a box. It's painted a bright yellow, sticking out from the pale white wall. It has a picture of glasses on it. I guess I need those. I slowly lift the latch and grab a pair of plain plastic glasses. Reminds me of tek-ed. I put them on removing my glasses and push open the heavy door. The sight I see causes me to gasp. Un. Believe.Able.

There, as real as day, is the meat grinder. Its a large grey machine sitting idle next to a conveyor belt. I almost get giddy at the sight- but I don't. It has a large opening to put the meat in, and one at the end too. I finally get to see this baby in action! I rush over to the machine, stroking its smooth sides. It shines in the dull light, and somehow reminds me of a pearl. I look around for something to test. I see nothing. I'm about to sacrifice my shoe when i spot something in the garbage. It is a package of spoiled meat. Bingo. I rip it open avoiding the smell, and turn on the machine. How did I know how? Easy. There is a large red button on the side. Anybody could figure that out. It roared to life, making horrible crushing sounds. I gulp and quickly throw the meat in. It makes strange noises and then stops. I think its done. As I walk over, I feel something tugging on me. I turn around. Nobody here.. I turn my attention back to the machine. Wait... what is going on?

It continues it loud noises until- my arm starts getting pulled towards it. Turns out, a thread of my shirt was stuck in it. Easy fix. I slowly start to take my shirt off when.. I can't. It's stuck. The machine is now dragging me in by my shirt. Oh man. I can't fix this. I scream loudly, but of course nobody can hear me. Besides, I'm almost dead anyway. I cry like a baby.You would be crying too if you were about to die. It brings me in closer and closer until- Whoosh!- it flings the rest of me in. How interesting.

I) I love water. And ice. ice is so beautiful. And so is water. I just love how sparkly and glittery ice is, and how silky smooth its surface is. But water? Gosh. It's just so pretty when truckloads of it fills the land. Especially the forests. That's where I am now- in the forest. With my family of course: Me, mom and my sis. Don't you think it's interesting when birds swoop down to eat their prey? It's memorizing. Oh, sorry. Just a random thought that popped in my head. But your okay with that. I know. Anyway, I am putting my skates on right now. They hug my feet tightly and never want to let go. I am proud of the way I tie my skates. My sis is jealous. I bet you are too.

We are planning on just skating until we drop, and then sit down to eat. My mom packed us sandwiches with carrots. I love carrots. Mom said I'm a horse. But horses are quite pretty, so I don't mind. Just wish I was a bird more. My sis is already on the ice, making slow never ending figure eights. My mom is fixing the log we are going to sit on, and I am heading out for the ice right now. It's so nice out.

I skate and skate, racing my sis and mom. I like doing activities like this- it brings the family together. The forest around us is mysterious and quiet, as if it is watching us fish in the fish bowl. Actually, I want to swim now. Does that sound crazy? It does, but I brought a swim suit. Don't ask me where I got it, cuz even I don't know. I snuck it in my individual food basket. I convinced my mom I needed my own basket, and she bought my lie. Mom and sis are on the log now eating. They called for me earlier, but I said I would eat later.

"Hey mom?" I called out.
"Yeah?"
"I forgot something in the car. Can I go get it?"
"What is it? I'll get it for you." She says as she puts down her lunch.
"My extra lunch. I'm super hungry."
"Alright, I'll go get it."
Sis decides to follow my mom as they go to the car. This will give me enough time to swim, since the car is pretty far away. This is turning out even more perfect than I thought.

They are gone now, and it is just me. I throw my skates off and hurry off into my swimsuit. It isn't exactly warm out, you know. After I am all snug in it, I break a hold in the ice with a near-by rock I found. I keep chipping away until it is big enough to fit my whole body. I'm excited- I get to swim! I grab my snorkel I also hid, and jump in. A wall of cold cement hits my body. At least, that's what it feels like. I slowly go deeper into the water, observing the cold darkness around me. It feels magical in a way. Like, I'm in a dark chamber where nobody else can find me. When I think I cannot breathe anymore, I start to swim back up. They probably aren't back anyway, so I'll be okay.

For a moment, I'm confused. I cannot see a hole. I swear I went up in the same direction that I had came. It's not here! I want to scream, I want to cry, but I also want to live. I attempt to break a hole in the top, but its solid. I'm about to explode. I look to my left and what I see doesn't seem real. Not one little bit.

The whole dark chamber, as I called it, is brightening with light. It slowly is changing into ice. Not just the top, but the actual water under is FREEZING. I can't believe my eyes. It gets closer, and closer until it reaches me. I feel my body get numb and get covered by a sheet of cold. I can't move or breathe anymore. Then, my whole body is surrounded by ice. I think I'm inside. I wish I could have said goodbye. My mind shuts down to the point where I can't even think anymore.

K) "Huzzah! We have... salad." I was letdown to find salad in my lunch bag. We come out all the way to go on a boat to meet some stinky KOALAS, and I get SALAD. Thanks mom. "Compliments to the chef.." I know she gets mad when I don't eat healthy, so I fork in a few mouthfuls of salad before getting up. I guess lunch won't be the highlight of the day. That's when I remembered. I have my secret stash of EC in my lunch bag. (Emergency Candy) It's under the removable bottom. I sit back down and rip it open as if my life depended on it. Hey, a girl needs her daily dose of this stuff. I remove the bottom to reveal my last bits of candy and reddi-whip. I eat my candy in a few bites and add tons of reddi-whip to my salad. Sounds weird, but it tastes good. Mom thinks it just dressing, so it's fine.

I finish my salad easily and get back up for real this time. The boat is cruising smoothly over the water. Mom says it would be a good experience if we check out the koalas at the reserve. Ha, experience my butt. Actually, ew haha,no, don't. I walk over to where my mom is standing. She's talking to some dude. I get bored of them talking about how cute koalas are so I walk back to where I sat before. Ugh, this is so BORING. I wish I had something to do.

I eventually doze off on the seat. I'm awakened by something strange. I can't really explain it. I'm not good at explaining stuff. You know that. First, I hear my mom scream. She's really loud. At first, I think its part of my dream since I am half asleep, but it turns out it's real... I wipe my eyes to see not just her, but everybody running around like idiots. What is going on? I look up towards the canopy to see grey blobs. No.. they are actually Kaolas! I laugh my head off. They are sticking their butts out from the canopy, and even in peoples faces. I spot a lady trying to grab one.

"Aww.. Aren't you a cutie! Come on... Just a little more.." She reached out for the koala, but failed. Instead, it leaped onto her face. Silence...
"OH FING GOD GET IT OFF ME!" She panics and dives for the water, probably ruining her nice dress. I feel bad for everybody on here, even that crazy woman. I sit happily in my seat when I hear a cracking sound. Sorta like a tree about to fall down. I look up. The canopy is falling in, and eventually collapses. The koalas are on top of me now! I can't breathe. Too... many...

"He-help.. Somebody." It smells terrible in here, but I didn't mention it. The weight eventually breaks one of my bones. I scream in pain, but it's muffled. You know what's worse now? One of these little retards is scratching my face. Just what I needed, thanks. I feel the blood oozing from my face. It's really the only feeling I have right now. (Besides awkwardness, that is.) I start to fade into darkness beneath everything, escaping the world. Let's have another vacation like this, okay?

M) Here I am, without water in this crazy place. I feel like my insides have dried out. I mean, come on. How stupid can you be? We are in AFRICA and dad forgot the water. Right now we are just sitting in the jeep like hobos, panting like dogs. Do hobos have dogs? Just wondering. At least I'm trying to have fun. Dad is crying. Really? Yeah, that's the kind of dad I have. A cryer. It sucks. Mom, I wish you were here. I look up towards the clouds. And no- she's not dead. She's back in the US. You know what? I'm going to ditch him. Yeah, I can survive without his flithy a** slowing me down. Just you watch.

I jump out of the jeep and run out into the desert until I no longer hear his crying. Ha! Serves him right. I can live without him. Wonder if he can live without me. I laugh. Probably not. He's a wimp. From all this walking, I come across a large mountain. It's rocky and reminds me of the grand canyon- just not as grand.

Luckily for me, there is a small lake beside it. See? Told ya I would live without him. Right now he's probably closer to dying, and crying some more now that I am gone. In a way, I feel bad for him. But I never was close to him. Hmp. I jog towards the lake aiming my arms to dive in. I am happy I get to live without him around. I'm almost there when I hear a loud roar. It scares me so much I fall on my butt. It shook the whole ground! Dang, what was that? I quickly look around and scootch back on my butt, terrified. I suddenly hit something soft. Maybe it's just some shrubbery. Oh... boy, was I WRONG.

I turn my head around to find a large mountain lion looking down on me. It licks its mouth as if seeing what I tasted like. Oh god no! I struggle to get back on my feet but when I do, I run. Forget the water, that can wait. If only I drank first before running... I hear him. At least I think it's a he. But yeah, he's running all right. Fast. I swear he's just behind me, but I don't dare to look. It's too ugly to look at anyway. That's when he picks up speed. It's more like a cheetah now. But a cheetah in Africa? Naww. I feel a slight pain in my foot. Guess I stepped on a rock. But I don't care.

He races faster towards me now, I can hear it. I can't believe the situation i'm in.. then, when I think it's over, he leaps over and lands directly onto me. The wind is knocked out of me and his heavy weight blocks my air way. Nice one. Well, I bet I lived longer than dad did. He slashes me open and the world goes dark.

O) "Get the hell out!" She throws another bottle at my head, but I duck this time. "And take all of your crappy belongings with you! I've had enough of this s**t. You don't really effing love me, just GO." I gather a basket of clothing and sneak in a bottle of whiskey. This is going to be a long night. "Bu-" "OUT." She kicks open the door breaking the top part of of the hinges. I cringe. I still don't understand why she dumped me... I gave her everything she ever wanted. I walk out into the rain in shame and she slams the door close behind me. Well, I'm screwed.

I smile to see the car. Oh baby... have we had so many memories together! I even get to keep you. I squeeze through the open window and sit in the wet seat. Guess the rain started to get in it. I hot wire the car and smoothly drive away. b***h. I don't need her. I pop open my bottle of whiskey and take a swig of it. I'll just find somebody better.

I drive along the back roads where there are no cops. I'm going to have some fun. I keep driving until I arrive at my old time favorite place to go. It's a plain cliff that overlooks the whole city. Pretty nice place to be miserable at. By now, I am pretty drunk. I stagger out of the car and nearly fall on my a**. I regain my balance and start to twirl around.

"Ladadidoo~" My voice cracks. I don't mind. I keep twirling and think of ballerinas. Hot, sexy ballerinas. I wish I was one. I fall flat on my face this time, getting a mouthful of dirt. I take another drink of whiskey and wash down the dirt. Ain't such a bad night, if I do say so myself.

"Dafuqqqq." I scream out to the world. It echos. I'm satisfied with what I hear. I start to have a convo with the beautiful, enchanting echoy voice. "-ere are ya?" I hear it's echo. "Don' question me ya filthy b*****d!" I become angry. "Ohhoh. Ya think yer funney? Well, yer not!" I swing my arms back at the 'not'. I think I quieted him down. Maybe I can get a closer look at this here young fellow. I stagger closer to the edge. I see two edges, so I'm not sure which one is real. I try going farther, but instead I fall right off.

"I'm fleying~" I try to say. I flap my arms lazily laughing. Hell, this is fun! I see the ground getting closer. "Whaa?" I feel a giant blow to my back. Takes me awhile, but I eventually turn blind. Hallelujah!