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this is how i feel when im around my bestfriend...
I hate you. I hate how you make me feel around you. I hate how you always lie to me and expect me to be ok with it. I hate how you will say things to me and never mean them. I hate your smile. I hate your love. I hate your eyes. I hate how you smile at me. I hate how when im sad, you just sit back laughing at me. I hate when I say "I need help" or "please help me", you just ignore me .I hate how when people are around, i dont exisit to you. Im just an annoying person that won't leave you alone. I hate how i'm just your second choice in life and if you could, you would get rid of me. I hate everything about you. But if you want me to be honest, i hate me more than i hate you. The reason whyis through all of that, i can never stop thinking of you. I hate the fact that no matter how much you make me pissed, i never stop loving you <3 I hate that whenver we do talk, you make me feel better than i ever do. When we are together, i feel like nothing can separate us....but that all changes, Cause im not cool, no one likes me, and im annoying. So you cant ruin your perfect image 4 a friend, can you??