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You know who you are. You know what you did. My question is why? I ended it simply. No hard feelings towards each other. Why did you start this? I'm so confused about many things. I'm quickly moving on, I think you should do the same. Quit trying to impress me whenever you see me; It is not working. You say you have more friends, I can see why. You are all up on them since we split. You also are online 24/7 because you don't go to school, you got bullied too much I see. You try to be successful on Gaia, maybe you are. Yes you have friends here, but what about real life? I obviously beat you in that game, baby. Remember Justin? My ex we use to talk about. Remember how I told you he made fun of my health problems, my heart condition and such? You would always say he was such a d**k and so on, but look at yourself. You have become just like him. It's sad, the guy you once looked down upon is what you have become. I'm sitting here laughing at you and your pathetic attempts to feel important, needed. You were once important, needed, depended on, loved, trusted, all by me. But its gone now, forever and always. No I don't want to fight with you, not because I am "scared" of you and your "friends". But because simply, I want to keep the memories of me and you good, not bad. When someone mentions you, I want to remember laughing about Justice possibly being gay, or you yelling at your sister. Or the night you first called me, and your sister questioned me like hell. Those were the good old days, yeah I miss them, but they are the past and I have a future to worry about. Yes, a short future, but I bet you in my short future I will accomplish more than you in your long future. Where will you go in life? Living on the streets, barely getting by? The army? Bootcamp? Maybe that will do you some good, learn some discipline and respect. Where will I go? Hopefully I can graduate college, I wanted to be into Forensics, but teaching interest me too. I want to teach kids, so they don't grow up to be like you. I know you probably won't see this, and if you do, I'm glad. I don't hate you, but what you did was completely just...I don't know how to explain it. Yes, go along and tell Rob, Jacob, and maybe Mika about how stupid I sound, tell them to read this. I don't care, I just had to let this out, since you won't give me a chance to talk to you civily and with respect, not in a joking manner, this is the only way I could let it out.