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I want to say that I am depressed. And that..I am.

I feel horrible inside. I'm very sensitive. I'm multi-emotional.
I am just very self conscious, bashful and very very emotional.

I hate that I hold these traits. Traits that I harbored and now is wanting to give away.

I feel so sad inside. I dislike this in me. I hope things will be better because I am not feeling good.

I need to pay off my bills, make more friends,pass my classes, and not to be feeling like this. I sometimes feel like I'm not good enough for anything or that I overdo things or spoil many others. I just do not like me at this moment. As I am writing I am feeling like I want to cry inside, crawl to a corner.

I hate showing these feelings to ppl. Because once they see this its like a tear in the skin that cant always heal to its exact form. They wont ever look at me the same way as before. I'm sorry for everything. I don't know why I am here or who have brought me here but I feel ubber low right now. So low, that asking someone for help can only cause me to feel bashful and depress.

I will heal shortly....


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