I know when I look back on this...everything will be alright and at peace.
Just like my full years of journal entry implies. Filled with alot of stuff.
Me and chai are having financial aid problems so woot! I'm not alone.
I love my life at this point but not my family. They refuse to give me money because I go outside too much. And to prevent it is to not give me money?
Everyone seems to have school tommorow. BooHoo to them.
God is in my heart. Yeah, everyone might think that hanging around w/
alot of athiests will change my view but no. My life has altered so much because
of Him. I will forever be a christian. Heck, I didn't get baptized for no reason.
Everything that I've ever dreamt of , or Wanted has come my way.
It doesn't feel real. But I so love it. Now its time to keep my hands holding and my feet on my toes.
I am ready. W/E it is I am ready.
I feel at lost in my life at many things, but I'll never lose
my positive surge that shields me from within.
my mood: well Im stuck at home. my parents are being sexist so they wont wash my laundry because I didn't go to the laundrywith them. But they washed my brothers whle he was sleeping.
This year: Liz told me that in the morning of school ppl have to stay in the quad to prevent bad behavior. Yet, I still think pplwill be smoking in the baseball field and climbing the school buildings.
I loled on facespace. when she told me of this school's districts new plan. lol. I miss high school.
College won't be the same and my heart will forever be in Fresno. Yearning if my lover is okay. If my friends are still having fun without me. I think I made a wrong decision. I regret it in so many ways that as I am typing this I feel nauseacious and I can almost shed a tear.
This is a selfish move. IDC what anyone says.
I didn't think right enough when I made it.'
Now anything that happens when I go to Davis will be my fault.
Well Im staying positive and strong. I live with no doubts, as my motto and don't think of bad things. When I start to ..I break. So no. I rarely do think like this. I will be the bigger person when it comes to doubt and stuff like that.
I feel like I want to cry right now. But I refuse until I can hold no more in my dorm room and let the tears go like a running waterfall...unstoppable until all the water is gone and dry.
426 has come back. Oh ******** me.
Music makes me happy. smile
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