******** despising my step-mother right now, she's completely ridiculous and making absolutely no sense. Her conclusions are made from half-baked ideas in her negatively ugh ******** I can't even write this now >.< I want to leave.
[edit] She's running completely on emotions, all negative every moment I'm in her thoughts. She throws her emotions at me directly and indirectly every chance she gets. Whether I'm there and she's making sarcastic hate filled comments about my actions, inaction, or the times that I'm doing either at or when I'm in another room and she speaks directly down at me, loud enough that I can easily hear, with solely negative and hurt thrown at me. She's succeeded in one day in making me want to leave and never return and also managed to bring back dark pieces of me that had once been hidden. I'm much closer to darkness then I have been for a long time, which is quite frustrating. Luckily she taught me how to protect myself against her very actions she's committing now but a day before she snapped. She had literally been positive and helpful moments before she decided I was not worth a thing to her and my very self being near her was something to loathe. Fortunately I can hold council in my mind and convince myself that her thoughts and actions are mis-guided. I think I may try staying somewhere else for a while, that or just never being here when she is...which will be quite difficult seeing as they're on vacation starting probably next week. It's just frustrating to think you can trust someone and then have them turn volatile. At least I know my first thoughts were correct, though why I still doubt them I do not know.
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