(Blaze if ur reading this I hope u dont mind..if you do i can always take this entry off :3)
My Reasoning
Watch me as I disappear from the world....
watch me as I reappear....
life takes its turns....
it throws us crazy choices....
we make mistakes....
we make decisions...
we make enemies...
we make friends...
our lives are made....
our futures created...
fate is cruel...
but when we don't die when we are supposed too...
then we defy fate....
what happens when nothing can control us...
not even ourselves...
is there a predetermined future or spontaneous events...
does fate really exist...
or is it just a lie to ourselves...
a reason to think that everything we do is supposed to happen....
watch me as I control my life again....
watch me as I get my life back....
all that I have lost I will get back...
and I will make life what I have wanted....
I made mistakes..
I made decisions....
I made enemies...
I made friends....
I lost it all...
and now I will fight with everything I have to get it back....
I will "NOT" die without a chance to fix my broken life...
I've lost and because of it I got careless....
and now that I have pushed everything away....
its time to realize that my loss is not a reason to give it all up....
its my reason to fix everything.....
no matter what sacrifice I have to make to fix it....
3 and a half years since I loss the chance....
a part of my life stolen...
a heartless soul stole my chance....
to be a father............... fate is cruel................
but now I have the reason to believe I can fix it....
I have saved 7 lives.....
I have helped when I had the choice not to....
My life is now mine again.....
after years of hidden pain....
fake smiles.....
fake laughter.....
I said I was alright....
I said there was nothing wrong.....
I lied.......
all those that don't love me anymore....
they will soon see that even when they don't...
I will still fight to fix the broken.....
WATCH ME AS I REAPPEAR.....
Love Never Lost
When we hugged..
a tear ran down your cheek..
when we kissed..
your eyes turned red...
when we made love..
you began to cry...
You knew that one day I would die..
and you would be lonely..
even when you don't want to..
you can imagine...
my casket lowering into the ground...
your fear of losing me...
your love for me...
it all gave you the strength...
that even with the fact of future loss...
you wanted to be with me...
and love me...
so hold me more closely...
then your fantasy....
of the two of us...
living.... loving.... forever....
