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I'm having these feelings. Its not love, its not hatred, its simply emotion. What can it be? I ask myself daily. Yet, I cannot explain my sensation. I feel like I'm.... being watched. Being watched closely, simply like an exhibit in a museum. Closely. Silently. Stealthily. I feel nervous very often.. Then I have a mood swing. Anger, depression.. Everything I've ever felt bursts in at one moment, and it feels like time simply stopped. Followed by silence, it seems as if I'm dead. If only I could explain better, then my chest would stop heaving large gulps of air. But no, its simply stuck like this. I must stop thinking, and start acting. If I am being watched, I need to think. I need a plan. I need to get a hold of myself and start refining my inner core. I need to dream more often just to get this feeling away. Stupid emotions..... stare