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Been playing around with the idea of moving to live with my father in NC.
I am going to go visit this summer, after school lets out so I can see him after his return from overseas, which I am excited about.
The main problem with this is that I have had many problems with him in the past and I do not care for my step family, though I still care for my step-family. I amm weird like that.

The main reason I am thinking about moving there with him is that I am moving to online classes anyway and because of this, I really have nothing keeping me here.
I know I have mother and I love her very much, but I honestly do not want to deal with my current home life. My home life is becoming a bother, what with the cousin living in with us and the issues I have with her. I really wish I could just move me and mother out of there.
I have lost most of my friends because of something stupid they did, which still pisses me off, but nothing I can do except move on. stare
The girlfriend I have right now I get to see very rarely and while I do care for her, I do not see us lasting since she and I have bad schedules.
Which is a shame because I really like her.

I know some of these reasons are terrible, but I just at times wonder what I really have here holding me down?
I find the state boring.
Aside my mother and Girlfriend, I really do not have anyone who would miss me.
My home life is terrible.
Little to no friends.
I only get to see people now when I go to school, aside from that I get no human interaction. ninja

I feel as though I just do not belong and that if I where to disappear that it might be best for some, namely my mother who would start to have more money and my girlfriend who could find someone better suited then me.

I think at times I a being hard on myself, but at other times I really do wonder if I am just being to hard.

So I am playing with the idea of moving to live with my father in NC.