Not really, but kind of. I just feel like I haven't said all I could or should have. After breaking up with my two best friends Kyoko Gojo and StargirlJinx, I realize I've not really been heard. I'm not trying to rehash anything, and no, I'm not stuck on the topic. I really don't care anymore, and I wish them the best. I just don't know if they understand/care about how I really feel/felt/am feeling. In reality, this had nothing to do with the Spring Break vacation, and everything about how I was feeling up until that point. The trip was just the straw that broke the burro's back.
In the months before that, it had become almost routine to become irritated at one, or both of them, for reasons that might seem little to them, but it was a growing annoyance for me. Things like, not communicating, not having consideration for my time, or my ideas. And every time I would get upset, it would become this little game where the two of them would talk to each-other about how 'Angel's just being bitchy again' or 'oh, she'll get over it.' How it was always ALWAYS my fault, and I was always the bad guy.
I have known Kyoko since we were both in diapers, but it doesn't seem to mean anything when she would always take Jinx's defense. It was as if I had no right to be angry, or upset just because she didn't want us to be fighting around her. Reminds me of the ostrich... If you can't see it, it doesn't exist.
And Jinx? She didn't care that her little habits of doing what she wanted, when she wanted, and when it was convenient for her was really stressful and destructive. I mean, aren't friends the ones who are supposed to help you relax when the whole world is stressing you? It became this constant source of aggravation, and I couldn't handle it anymore. I have plenty of stress enough already. I don't know if they'll ever read this, or if they'll even care. I just know that I've said everything now.
They promised they would be there forever, but I guess that was a lie.
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