Right now, I have my doubts in life. Ever since this morning, since the break up, my heart has been aching, and my stomach has been in a knot. It wasn't until I was in the shower that it hit me. We're seperate, he can go and date any of the thousands of fan girls lined up to mack on him. He was mine and now, I mean nothing to him, but he still means everything to me. I need to find a way to get over him because I know we're never getting back together, it'll only cause more drama. I let it drag on too long and now it hurts more then it really has to because I let it. He even admitted he got bored of me, and kind of admitted he was only staying because he didn't want to break my heart. We're just 'friends' now, and I really don't want anything to do with him because I feel awkward around him, and he acts like everything is soooo much better with out me as a barren on him. I HATE HIM for it. He's so likable though, but, I loathe every minute falling for his 'nice guy' crap. I was worried about breaking his heart? This whole sherade didn't do crap to him! It tore me to shreds! Every part of my heart is scattered a crossed the floor, and he says it'll be a 'quick recovery.' Please give me some ideas on how to get over him! Breaking up wasn't my idea, I just saw him get distant from me, and closer to my best friend! I won't recover from this, and I will never forgive myself for falling for his stupid charm act. I'm having about the 5th breakdown since I've met him. I sat down and cried over him, and I'm sure he doesn't care. I would spend so much time thinking about him during the day, and I'm sure he never spared a though for me. I think the whole 'I would love to spend V-Day with you and all, but I've been traumatized.' stuff, might have been true, but he was on anyways, saying he wouldn't spend V-Day moping and spend it with me. Romantic, and that's where it all went down hill.
Maybe I'll go out with that cute guy in my WorkShop Class.... when my heart has been put together and has been stitched up.
Insanity Princess Hotty Community Member 
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