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Why did you do this to me?
What did i do to make you leave?

Why did you leave me here alone?
Why do i still hurt because of you?

Did you hurt me on purpose?
Didn't you know i cared about you?

What did i do to make you wanna do that?
Why does your mother blame me?

Why won't she let me see you?
Why do i cry for hours over you?

Why can't i try to move on?
Did you think i stopped loving you?

Did you think i stopped caring?
I would never do such a thing!

What happened?
Why would you do it that way?

Hangin from the ceiling of your garage?
By a ******** rope?

Was it really worth it?
Was hurting me beyond repair worth it all?

Do i really deserve this pain that i feel everyday?
Do i really have to keep my promise to you?

What if i don't want to?
What if i don't want to keep it, cause i would be hurting myself?

What if i don't want to hurt myself?
Who really truly wants to mutilate themselves?

I don't want to hurt anymore?
Why can't i stop hurting?

Why do i get sick?
Why do i get that way from thinking about what happened?

Why don't i have any answers to these ******** questions?

.....

Because she hung herself from a rope in her garage before i could ask them..... and now i live with hurt everyday because she took her own life.

Juliana.... i miss you greatly.

I may be mad, sad, depressed, alone, etc.

But i will always have the memory of my soft, sweet, gentle angel.

Who made me be a better person.

I will never forget you.

This i promise.

I promise that i will never let anyone forget you.

These two years of your absence have hurt.

but i know your not hurting anymore.

I love you Juliana... and i hope you know that...i hope you always know that....

You will always be loved my be, my love, Juliana...

....I love you.