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in the time i have spent with my mouth closed, i have learned to predict certain cenarios,(i cant spell wort a damn when i type sorry) and the outcomes of my decisions. i can predict the way certain people react with different senarios, (im trying idk how to spell it lol) and the way they think. i have a lot of people's minds practically mapped out at my disposal. For example, my mother is a b***h. she gets me a laptop so i can play games and such. but every time she sees me on my laptop she thinks A)im watching porn
or
B)iv been playing games all night or all day
which neither of those is ever true. i do play games all night though. sometimes. most of the time. all of the time. now people know why i fall asleep in gym class. GYM CLASS! D:< but in class, i say almost nothing. hell, ive gone entire school days without talking to anyone. my ability to listen is rarely surpassed, but iv had people tell me i have a way with words. i have an uncanny ability to persuade someone. well, not really but i ever had to get ransom money from someone, i'd alway know who to kidnap or what to steal. im just like that. iv often thought out how to get away with murder. iv got so many fool proof ways that if anyone ever found out i would be in jail/the looney house. probably the latter. i strongly beleive myself to be insane, for what is the definition of sane? if sane means doing what u should do or acting like a normal person, i dont want to be sane. so what if i take my shoes off when i sit? so what if i answer people slowly with as few words as possible and usually use words they dont know? (factoring vacuous hectopascals i have to verbally assail them with my deriding ways muahahaha) the dumbasses will always think im crazy, when i dont care what the hell they think. they will all bow to me some day. not litterally but u know when they are homeless and begging for change to buy more crack, i'll toss em a quarter and light their hobo box on fire and steal their carton of milk. im not mean and crazy, im just smart. and being smart and very veeeeeery full of myself helps me see all of the faults in other people.(very negetive thinker) i can see the good things too, but most people are more flawed than they are good. im no exception. i have once wished that i could beas athletic, or as tall as someone else.(this was back wen i was short) but now i wish that anyone, just anyone could be as smart as me, or at least understand me somewhat. iv found a few good people. these people are the best friends i will ever have. some may not have a future, but my friends are the people ill be helping out in life. them. and no one else. Burn while I live on......