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I've made mistakes in my life, destroyed people who I once loved...and one that I still do. But after the eternety I have lived, I can finaly let go of my hate...but I know that I can never have her again.

Life is pain, we all know that, but we don't know why...I chose a girl who I thought was right, but she had other ideas. And now I've found a girl who fits all that I'm looking for, but at times it seems like she only wants the one thing that I don't need in love. Have I made the right choice with her? Or will I have lost some of my greatest loves...one after the other...

I once had another, she fit me well, but she had no mind of her own, she never thought. I tried to help her, aid her to become what she always wanted to be, but she could not learn. Even now, when I spend my time with her, she does not listen, regaurdless of how much she loves me...I see no hope for us.

Then she came. We didn't know each other, but I always wanted to speak with her, I never cared what it was about, but just to speak with her... She was young, but she was still beautiful. She was some much like me, we thought alike, we talked alike, we dreamed alike... Months passed and I told her of my love for her, and she told me of hers. I was happy...but for the breifest moment of my life... She was too far from me, and I needed her next to me. I loved her, but neither of us could take the pain anymore...

I loved her, I loved them all... but I broke their hearts, and destroyed myself. What you all see is just a shell. I am the Heart Breaker, The a*****e, The Regretted, The Unforgiven... I am nothing to be loved, but they will never stop. I warn them of the pain that they will feel, but they promise that won't happen...but it does, It always does... Love is not for me, no matter how much I need it. I cannot harm another, My pain is great enough...

I know only one way to stop this pain, but I am forbidden. I had thought you all loved me, but you force me to live in this hell, to suffer in pain for my Immortal life! I just want to end this, my pain and yours... Please, just let me die... It's the last thing I ask of you all...

~I don't know who will be reading this, and I really don't care... 6 paragraphs of my depression, out for the world to read. Everyword I typed I meant. My life consists of only pain, and I cannot stop the torture... I have loved my entire life, fought to protect, suffered to make them happy... but when I ask them for one thing, the one thing that can end my pain and make me truly happy... I do not ask for love... love is what caused this. I ask for Death, I ask that I can be freed of the suffering I've lived with for so long... I just want to die....~