So the day is starting to come to an end. Nothing got better as i hoped and I'm definatly not ready for that test tomorrow. I have spent most of my past few minutes crying out my sadness in my bedroom. I can't stop thinking of a lot of things...I don't think these are the feelings I should have and I keep wanting to think my assumptions, my thoughts, my feelings and everything else is wrong. I can't seem to find a way to just be happy right now. I feel trapped in a spikey pit of sadness and it's sowly closing in on me. I wish i had my girlfriend to support me right now...I wish i could only hear her loving wonderful voice telling me all my thoughts are oblivious ones and that she will tell me how much she loves me. That is honestly my recepie to happiness....my girlfriend, i rely on her a lot and right now...i need her badly. I also keep thinking about how friendless I am. I perhaps have only 3...MAYBE 4 friends in this entire world with my girlfriend being my best one. I need someone to tell me things are okay, and i need someone to help me feel better. To be honest...I'm kinda excieted to go back to school and book an appointment with my phycologist. As i burst into tears while i write this blog, I can't help but think...Is this going to be my life forever? Or will things start going into the light side of life for me? Anyways...My eyes hurt my fingers hurt and I am tired. I think I am going back to my bed and try relaxing once again. One last thought that will be on my mind as i make my journy up the stairs to my room which seem so far away and a hopeless mission, i will be thinking about my love...who in my mind will be waiting for me with a big welcoming hug for me.
End of entry #2 - Part 2.
Luke. J. Hollis.
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