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It’s so painful for me
And so confusing to be
Feeling what you’re feeling, but not for me
Can’t you believe – I want you to be happy? I’m living but not for Free
NOW WHY?! Don’t you understand?
THAT I! Can’t begin to doubt, YOUR LIES
Can’t handle when. you. hide.
(Can’t bear to see you cry)
I know~
Know that it’s Not –OVER.
Know you still care enough to say to me “hello” I know~
Know I’ll -Have the chance!
(If I make it for myself)
NO! you still Haven’t left my dreams!
And I’m driven to my knees!
What can I do, to help? You- Believe in angels~
Would you- believe in me?
If you saw me leave~?
I don’t want to go!
I’m not asking what you need
I’ll be beside you through everything
You mean everything to me~
I’m trying hard to listen, won’t you (speak up)
But all~ I, Hear~ is
The sound of you –Breathing on the other side
I can reach, but am not welcome to reside~
(Are you scared that I may die?) I won’t break if I’m alive
(Won’t leave you, leave behind -inside)
***Low, slow chords and drums
Inside~ I’m not so sure of my decisions
And feel~ Like~ I’m a failure ~at all I do~
I don’t care about the past
If it stays buried, it will last
Till someone else, wants to bring it to the surface
So let’s, start over
I don’t even know~ what I’ve done right
Couldn’t even tell ~you, why it means so much to me
Whether you ~Believe
I believe ~you can see, but you hide your eyes from me
No one will change~ what
I~FEEL~Oh~~
No one may be there –and
No one may care, but I can’t stop believing
This feeling won’t leave me
I don’t even mind that~ it stays~
Every day, and I hope, as I pray
That one day, you will say
“you~ don’t need to change. I hope that we can stay this way-”
(I believe, do you)
Do you?