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I don't know if anyone else will ever read this. Part of me hopes someone does, the other prays no one does. Ever since I was 12 I've not been able to not lie to someone. As far as I know everyone who knows me completly buys some lie about me that I told them. Obviously this is my own fault.
I use to be a compulsive liar but with alot of work I'm not anymore. But like an addiction it's hard to stop. This is not made easier by the fact that no one around me knows I had a problem so to keep things steady I have to keep up with the lies I told which means continuing to lie. I know that I should I admit to the mistakes of my past but I don't know if anyone would be left in my life if I did.
For years now I have wanted to ask for professional help, but I know I wouldn't be able to get it. So in yet another attempt to maintain my sanity I'm going to be telling everything here. Past and present, only the truth.