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Last night, an old friend (Lillan) of my invited me too join her at Kim's Birthday. Which is her younger sister, who was turning seventeen. But beneath that invite, I knew that she was really asking if I could come and company her, so she wouldnt be bored, while her younger sister and her friends did what annoying younger teens do. At the time, I didnt care what the hidden message was, I just wanted to leave the house! So I quickly accepted, and got dress [casually] jumping out of my PJs. When I had time left, I search the caller ID, for my mom's work number so I could quickly ask, and explain everything. I knew what words to say, to change her mind, if she at first said 'no'. The good old; "Trust me" card, next to "I -empty- Promise" one. But the number was lost. Abandoning the phone, I went to the bathroom, to mess with my hair, the phone rang. It was Lillan, telling me that she was outside, waiting -impatiently-, I lied that I was coming. I was really just trying to mess with my hair a little more, but running to wella. At lest she could explain to mom where I went, and once granny gave me the 'okay' with an scream to put a jacket on, I finally met up with my friend. She was in the passager seat while MisterD behind the wheel, I scooted to the back.

We were heading to Incredible Pizza, Yippie. .

Along the way, I couldnt shut up, I was going on about little things, like my new puppy or other random things on memories lane. Lillan giggle a few times, and MisterD was plain silent. When we all got there, I saw that Kim, only invited two people that I assume that she's very close, a friend name Amy and her boyfriend Tyler--Along with them was their mother MissRee.

At the table we naturally sperated away, Kim's and her two close ones at one, and the rest of us in another. Looking back, I dont know why we did that, it just happen. .
Once Lillan was done eating, I was happy to stop pretending to eat, when I was really picking and wasting food. I was just not that hungry, I guess when MisterD first noticed that he truned to me, "You better eat nine dollars worth of food girl. .!" and MissRee made an 'Mhmm' sound like she agreed with him. "Oh yeah," I smiled "I will." I half lied. But not that was over with, I happily heading to the game area with Lillan. Using the money that MissRee gave us, we carelessly spent it on arcade games, and karts. Even though Lillan is nineteen, the look on her face in the beginning gave her a more aimless older person, but somewhere in the fooling around it lit back up-There was a moment when I was happy that I helped her remember what it felt like to be carefree and blissfully childish again. -Or maybe I didnt help more like guide and let her come around to it. -Does this sound stupid?

I dont know how long we where there. Maybe an hour. Or more. Or less. It felt like less. Might have been more. Like I said, I dont know.
But when it was time to head back home, I would like to think that we all exited with a smile, and thought that was fun.

I drove with with MisterD and Lillan again-Part of me wanted to go home, thinking that I own to my mom, that and I wanted to see my puppy. The other part of me didnt want the night to end, hoping for a fun time, and well since they asked, I stayed over at their place. Somewhere around here I used Lillan's cell to talk to mom, and I'm gald and a hint of shock to say that. . .well. . .she was actully okay with it. Or it seem that way.
The drive there, MisterD was talking to Lillan about her 'not-offical' boyfriend, and other things about the real world. Even though I agreed what MisterD said, I didnt say so, becaues I knew that she felt that she was being verbally attacked. When it was just words from his fatherly heart, trying to clear the fog that blind her hopelessly romantic heart's sight. Noticing that we where almost there, I try to somewhat drop or end the topic-fearing that it would become a bigger deal that it already is, and ruin any hopes of dying from laughter later on in the night.

It somewhat worked. The topic was never spoken of again, but her mood slipped down somewhat. But not for long, since everyone but Mister or Miss was joking around.

The later the night, the more calmer things became, till it was just me.

It was no surprise. I couldnt sleep. I was awake and bored, while everyone else slept. To past the time I either played on Lillan's laptop or drew random picture. There where time that I just layed down, with my eyes close, and my mind unbelievably busy.

I couldnt drift to sleep till seven am.



Now after my mom picked me up. I learn that the one that I've been wishing to see again, that I've prayed to speak too for months. .
Just visit her, at her office.
Asking about me.

Why did he had to go when I'm not there!?
This has been the second time, that I've just missed him, all becaues I was with Lillan! I wish I knew that he was going to be there..

And now I look back and wonder, Do I reget going to my old friends?

There a part that strongly wants to SCREAM Yes. I do.
There's also another part that's whispering that, No. I dont.

Becaues if I didnt stay the night, then I wouldnt have been able to tell her. The words that I said durring the calm night while everyone else was away. Something tells me that those words, are the beginning of something..hopefully great.