Have you ever been so scared you actually cried so hard you shook?
Well thats how I am right now.
Scared to lose something precious to me because I did a stupid mistake.
What I have learned is that being so scared that i'm crying and shaking really ******** with my brain.
First it starts with me getting angry and I punch walls.
Then I have thoughts of killing myself.
Then I cry some more.
... But I've never been past that point.
Now I'm wondering, What is beyond that point for me?
Is it suicide?
Cutting?
Or just accepting it and going to bed?
If beyond that point is death, then do I really want to be there?
Well thats how I am right now.
Scared to lose something precious to me because I did a stupid mistake.
What I have learned is that being so scared that i'm crying and shaking really ******** with my brain.
First it starts with me getting angry and I punch walls.
Then I have thoughts of killing myself.
Then I cry some more.
... But I've never been past that point.
Now I'm wondering, What is beyond that point for me?
Is it suicide?
Cutting?
Or just accepting it and going to bed?
If beyond that point is death, then do I really want to be there?
