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i sit on the steps to the kictten the room is dark
im crying
Lilly: hay momy wheres dady.
Kumori: hu uh baby
whips my face and pushes my hair from my face.
Kumori: he's um i dont know.
Lilly: he isn't ever comeing back is he
Kumori; idk im so sorry
Lilly; hu u dont even c him much do u
Kumori; yes baby i cant lie to u any more about this.
Lilly: u use to be so happy in the morning that a day had pased and the closer it got towinter u got happyer u said that u where happy cause u knew u where going to get the greatest gift of all. . you said that in januwary u wuld wait for no mater what. Where u waiting for dady?
i shake
Kumori; yes .. then he will old enought to drive then i figured i get to c him. but i dont feel thats gonna happen
Lilly: i c . . . can dad feel our sprits in what he calls the real world.
i whip my face i look up at her
Kumori; no baby.. i dont think he blieves in it... pluse you guys r all ways around me., or he cant feel it and just maybe he thinks im crazy. that give and explain nation for y i never c him and he dosent pm me back. im not worth is time i geusss. and its wrong because off me u cant c him.
Lilly; what mommy...
Kumori; ive hurt him so much and all i want is to make him happy and to feel the warmth of his body...uhh
lilly; thats beuitfull
i look up at her loking between my hair bent over
kumori; yes it is i tryed to gave him my soul the next best thing is my heart but he wont exspect it. what must i give him to or do to get to c him again. If i didnt have u kids and the basic things i get happyness from. my soul would b dead till the next time i c angel. uhhh..
falls forward.
i lay on the floor lilly shakes me. Misty runs out of the corner off the room hugging my neck.
Missty; mommmmy ahhhh dont leave us tooo daddy no here no moreee wee cant loseee uuu ahhh rikuu wont even talk to meee no more. ahhh
Louie walks in rubing his eyes turning on the light.
Louie; whats wrong y there yelling
he looks down at me droping his blanket. he feels my neck.
louie: dont cry young one shes still a live but just past out..
he thinks: bearlly she transfered all he engrgerry . her soul is dieing and shes been hidind it.
Misty: whatz wrong with mommy?
Louie; shes resting deeply till she find whats sjes loking for.
he reaches down picking them up
Louie; dont worry she shoud b fine and dont worry about your dady ok. he puts them in bed. he picks me up raping me in the blanket puting me in the bed. kisesing me on ythe forehead,
Louie; he loves u he'll come back to c u and b with i promise on my life. U most stay alive atleast till then. Untill then rest my darling till your god your your angel come calling for u or return to c u.