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How am I supposed to react to this? Why is she determined to take away the one person that understands me, that brings me happiness? She says my feelings aren't real, but I know they are. What I feel is love. What she feels is an obsession over something she can't have. She says she's sorry she said those things to me, and I'm normally a forgiving person. I can forget what she said about me, but I cannot forgive the fact that she is trying to "make him hers." As if either of us could actually own him. There's no way she can feel what I feel-this ache in my heart because I need him and he's so far from me. It's so hard-the secrets, the lies, but I'm willing to do those things for him. I care about his happiness more than I care about anyone else's, even my own. And if being with her will give him the happiness he deserves, then I will sit back and watch with a smile and, admittedly, a broken heart. But his happiness is worth it. And I know that no matter what, I want him in my life, even if it's only as a friend. But I do know that there is a divine power because he exists.