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i don't feel like anything matters anymore. if I stopped talking entirely...if i just stopped coming... no one would notice. and even if someone did, they'd let it go eventually. at first i thought i just didn't want to feel. and in a way, i still don't. i don't want to feel anymore. it's ****** pointless. any emotion can lead to disapointment, and it usually does. i don't want anyone close to me. the closer they get, the more exposed i am. and once they see the real me, they run away. and who is to blame them? no one. because it's all my fault. i wish i could say that i wont be here next week. or the week after that, or the month after that, etc... but i cant do it because im ****** weak and pathetic. so please, im giving you permission to kill me. just do it quick.

Posted by: Foxer Diversion Immunity Wed Nov 25, 2009 @ 11:21pm

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Commented on: Thu Dec 17, 2009 @ 08:39pm


	well if you think that then maybe its a chance to make a huge comeback. i know everyone will wonder where you have gone, even if its just at the very back of there head. they still wonder about you, and thats a start right? saying that you want to kill yourself is just another way of escapeing, but i know your better then that. your better then most! and i KNOW for a fact that you can make everyone wish, they were you just for one moment because your just that awesome and fun! mrgreen you just got to try harder at life, it will get better, maybe sooner or then later, or vise versa, but sometime, it will. you just got to stick around and wiat for it or go get it yourself, i know you can. and so do you biggrin 4laugh heart message me if you want to talk it out.

Commented on: Wed Dec 23, 2009 @ 05:34pm

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DefinitelyJasper
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Commented on: Tue Dec 29, 2009 @ 03:11am


	Hun, I'd hold a gun to my own head before I'd kill you. AND I would ****** notice. BUT you aren't weak...I feel the same ****** way..I WANT to quit gaia 'cause I feel my attachment to it is "unhealthy" ANYWAY I love you so.....tell me before you poof. Tell me before you just up and leave. mmmkay? IF on the other hand a zombie bit you and you were slowly becoming one of them ....well then I'd shoot you....BUT ONLY THEN. <3 AND I'd hope you would return the favor if it was me..... O_O << >> sorry if this comment wasn't serious enough for you v.v

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