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Thank You (A Tribute)
So many things I regret, but never you. You were a brief, albeit Happy dream in a life that has been nothing but a hellish nightmare. I could nEver portray to you my gratitude by actions or words alone. If just for a Little while, I felt whole. Complete. That the void within me could Be filled at last. LIberation could be fulfilled while I was lying in your arms. Dying in your arms. I just wantEd you to know that, even now, I could never hate you. Resent your ability to just pick yourself up and keep moving straightaway, maybe, or resent that you could choose another- a male, no less!- so soon after crushing me utterly, but I could never truly hate you with all of my being. Truly you were an ethereal being sent to deliver me from crushing loneliness. Unlike tHe others, you did not jump back as if burnt while your fingertips beheld the deformed, jutting bone of my left arm, nor did you wince or cry out as those selfsame fingertips read my scar tissue like braille. You possessed the awe-inspiRing ability to overlook my multitude of flaws. All that time, you smiled and told me that I was beautiful. I knew that you weren't lying to me. I could see it in your eyes, though my mind Screams perpetually that I am not worth anyone's love or affection. How could I have fallen into the importance trap? No, my darling. I do not blamE you. I blame myself, blame myself foR believing that there was anybody out there in this cold Earth that could love me and not cast me aside when my usefulness has been used up. Truly humans are ignorant little thorns incapable of anything more than cutting into one another mercilessly.
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