The spikes of pain sheer through me
I love you I say
I do too she replies
My heart wants to scream at the pain
My mind tells me to do no such thing
How can something of such beauty cause such pain?
I know you need this I say
Thank you she replies
I’m crying
I want to break things
I want to shout to the heavens
I’m going to go she says
I want to scream no.
I want to hold her in my arms.
The black depths of my heart are smug at my pain
Love is all pain, as we tell you again and again
I bury that part of my soul.
I can wait to see you again I tell her, reassuring her
My heart cries out
I bury it
I wish I could tell how I feel
It’s not pain
Not sharp and cold of love lost
It’s the deep ache of love that is so close
But so far away.
