I had a dream I think to be quite reflective of my life at this current moment. Because of its relevancy I've decided to write it down.
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I was with my uncle and my cousin. We were in the car, traveling home from some sort of trip. When we arrived at my uncles house something about the door was forbidding. None of us would open it. Suddenly it was just me and the door. My goal was to open it, but I was afraid. So, I decided to take this head on, I ran up to the door and I pushed it open with all my strength! Then suddenly a blast of everything horrible in life hit me, I was struck by the worst of fears. But just as quickly as it hit me, it was over. And I walked inside.
In the next scene Me, my uncle and my cousin are wandering around inside when my aunt comes in. Drunk, she is staggering around Muttering incoherently. I notice there is something cooking in the oven, my first instinct is to check on it. I glance up at a flight of stairs. Then I look back at my aunt, and at the oven again. I decide the best choice right now would be to go up the stairs.
Once I get to the top, I enter a bedroom. I cross the room and sit on the bed. That's when I start to see "Ghosts". It's unclear exactly what I'm seeing, but I think they are children. Or people. I start grow anxious. I lay down on the bed and attempt sleep. That's when a little girl, (One of the ghosts) comes up to me. I'm very scared at first but suddenly I feel unafraid. She says to me,
"You can't become one of them you must try not to."
I try to think quickly, "one of them." what does she mean? I never really understand to the full extent who "one of them" is or was, but I know I should be afraid. I don't want to be "one of them". For some reason, that would be bad.
"How do I avoid becoming 'one of them'?"
I say.
"If you're walking and you decide to change into someone's shoes who are smaller then yours, you will become one of them."
It takes me a minute to understand this, change into smaller shoes? What could that mean. But, fair enough it sounds easy.
I want to talk to the little girl a bit more, but she suddenly disappears. I look around the room, distressed. And that's when I woke up.
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Some notes I had on this particular dream.
I'm fairly certain that the points in this dream (All, or most) are metaphors for my life.
The door represents a secret I've been keeping. Opening it would be to tell it, my worst of fears would be answered but in the end it will work out for the better. Opening it up and walking in is going to be hard, but I can do it. I will be stronger for the experience.
In this next part, I'm faced with three decisions. Talk to my aunt, check the food in the oven, or to go up stairs. I think this represents 3 decisions that have yet to come into my life but will come from opening the door.
I'm rather confused about this part, but I'll do by best to understand it.
The ghosts could be the trouble caused by telling the secret.
The ghost that talks to me, is me. Me as a child going through what I went through. She seems to warn me how to deal with the situation I'm currently in.
I think the shoes represent that, I'm walking in my shoes now and they fit. And becoming one of them would mean messing up the situation I've created for myself by telling the secret. If I was to, say take a step back in my maturity, or stop acting responsible, (something like growing backwards) I will then become one of them.
That's all I have to say as an evaluation of my dream.
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I didn't go into much detail about the actual dream itself, but let me tell you a bit more.
(Just stuff I think didn't matter much)
When driving, we actually passed the door a few times. Uncle was afraid of his wife seeing us. (For some unknown reason)
The door had painted on lines, I had to push the area between the lines near the bottom to open it.
In the house, when I noticed something cooking I though to tell my aunt to check on it. Or just talk to her about it.
The bed was a bunk bed, I went to the top bunk.
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So that was my dream, my evaluation of it, and side notes. Thanks for reading.
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