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Filled with SADNESS and ... MORE SADNESS I have left my heart in ... KANSAS. D:


Little bits to remember for the comic.


On the way out my grandfather had called me asking for a ride to the airport, as I am standing with my luggage, sarah eats a granola bar, and I try to explain over my broken phone that I cannot give them a ride to the airport tomorrow because I would be in KANSAS.

It's like 3:30 when we leave, I'm like OH GOD we'll never make it, and my flight was delayed about TWO HOURS, FIFTEEN MINS!

smile Jackson was like *right* there waiting for me! We had late night Tacobell and drove the long a** drive back to his appartment.

I woke up with a migraine, one of the many things, Kansas seems to HATE ME. Later, I would pee blood, have terrible back aches, and an upset belly.

I made him join Restaurant City! smile There was much facebooking.

We had to get his new glasses and books, turns out he didnt get them all in time. We also went to the store twice to get an internet thing for his computer to be wirless. His eye doctors is like... a real dr... or something. Talked with his mom, she's nice.

UM, didnt do much, had a day of not doing *anything* his room mate bought a big tv. It was kinda scary there was much chanting about this big tv.

We went grocery shopping and Redboxed a movie. I cant remember right now which one! *thinks really hard* *goes to her email* I LOVE YOU MAN. He liked it. sad IT wasnt as funny as when i saw it in theaters, still good (but hey, role models was the same way, good to rent then) Jackson whined the whole time about foods. WAS ANNOYING, I made good tacos, but even better questadillas the next day with the left overs. sad the shrimp did not turn out well AT ALL. Sadness.

Um, whenever jackson was doing classwork, I was really jealous, I wanted to be doing it, I'm like LET ME DO YOUR MATH. sad he wouldnt. So I Played pokemon, and got lots of pokemon and grew my dex lots. smile

I have a broken phone, broke my computer, after breaking my ds. sad Nothing in my life works, please dont give me nice things. The computer made me cry a little, but it was under warrenty. So it'll get fixed.

I should go to the dr... but i think i'm gonna hold out. Laser hair is soon, and I dont wanna miss it, like I REALLY dont wanna miss it.

We saw two movies, District 9, amazing amazing. And Inglorius basterds. Meh. What was cool about the second one, is that we did screen and fork so we could make it to dinner with his dad and step mom, and we had these amazing french fries. Jackson tipped way to much. smile but the guy was super awesome so he was probably worth it.

Dinner with Jacksons parents was cool. I felt bad getting something not on the regular menu but like, I dont wanna special order and i really prefer to make my own if i can.

I think we went to chipoltle like three times. Unrelated, fries and ranch are amazing together!!!!

sad sadness the last night, much sadness, more blood. sad sad sad PROBABLY shouldnt put off going to the dr, but there are so many reasons to, like good insurance, and like, what a better way to start going to my new dr then to be like, yeah, about that.

Um, UGH, jackson is really nice to me about bring terrance. I like how we're both ocd, his is less destructive then mine, but it's there.

sad I'm sad right now tryingto be like ugh i have to put make up and shoes on and go to work, half a pay check, but worth it, the trip was so WORTH IT. It's just heart breaking.

I called my mom when i got tothe airport, She was like, you guys break up? I'm like NO! I did like b***h out and make him mad and cried one night, but no, we didnt, we're strong, we're tuff. sad I'm sad.

It figures that the way back we'd leave early and get there on time, and everything would go super smooth and like they even turned off the seat belt sign once! No one even sat in the seat next to me, I played pokemon, started reading nightwatch, and um, tried really hard not to cry.

I cried all last night, I couldnt sleep, it wasnt right without him. sad The dogs freaked out when I got back, but... It's still no jackson.


smile In good news, my brothers cousin is trying to open a comic book store, and I have demanded to work there. smile (I WANT IT!)

without jackson i have terrible thoughts, thinks about rape and attacks, and like, with him, I dont, I'm clear, I'm free of day dreams, and ... day nightmares? sad sad It's awful.

We watched season one and two of dexter, remind me to set that up on tivo. smile (free year of showtime ftw!) (SHE KNOWS)

I still need to see ponyo. sad

Before I left I made an amazing cake. smile