My life's literally gone downhill since me and Dude broke up. This is nothing against him: He wasn't ready to be with me (because his last girlfriend just HAD to be a psycho hose beast stare ) so yeah, I can't blame him. But later that week, I bought a cell phone... And got in trouble. Here's the situation: I was planning on getting a pre-paid thing. My dad was really cool with it, but Mom wanted me to get on her family plan so that she can make sure I don't go over my minutes and text in class and stuff. I was cool with Mom's plan and I understood her reasoning, so I went with her idea. I go back to Dad's and he's griping about how I made the wrong decision... What was so wrong about doing as I was told by my own mother? Can't he understand that I'm torn between him and my mom when it comes to orders sometimes? Oh well, I'm not really worried about that anymore. My step-mom is. She's been treating me like s**t ever since then. Why? She thinks (as she always does) that I'm playing off my Dad.
Then there's my best friend, Marissa. Well, she's not my best friend anymore. She's played me off for the last time. We've had our ups and downs for a while now, but this is the straw that broke the camel's back. I don't want to go into details right now, but let's just say that this wasn't the first time she's gone around saying things about me and this wasn't the first time that she's lied to me about stupid s**t. confused I'm sick of playing games with her, so I've completely lost contact with her. She doesn't know my new cell number and she's doesn't know that I'm moving. This should be easy now that I don't go to school with her anymore. I could investigate the situation and see what exactly was going on, but, like I said, i'm sick of dealing with her. I'll be the bigger person and just leave this whole thing alone.
And here we go. The deal with Dude... It's been, what, three weeks since we broke up? Hell, i don't know. Sounds long enough, right? It does to me.
I would see him coming into work every once in a while. What was really weird was that everytime he showed up, a sad country song would start playing on the radio... Hopefully that was just a coincidence.... It has to be, right?? eek
That's not it... One Friday... On Payday... he came in, and this really slutty girl I work with was working with me that day. She went up to Dude and was talking to him. I looked over just randomly and saw her nudging him and she PLAYED WITH HIS HAIR........!!!!!!!!! For the first time in a long time, I felt jealousy. One of my friends told me that he never touched her back and that the conversation ended quickly. That was a quick rush of relief, but STILL, I'd rather that his horses a** of an ex girlfriend (before me, of course) flirted with him besides HER!!!!
But, anyway, check this out: just recently, we worked together for the first time since we broke up. Believe it or not, it was fun being around him again. The thought of me working with him again made me want to s**t bricks. But, as soon as I approached him, he immediately said hi to me. Then we started talking and laughing. It was ******** awesome. I could have sworn I caught him staring at me a few times... surprised
Nawww... I'm just flattering myself. Yes, I still like him. Three weeks later and I still haven't gotten over him. I'm lame like that.
The way I think about it, I can't just force myself to get over him. If it was meant for me to get over him, then it will naturally happen. If not, well then that's great. I don't care. I'm good enough with the fact that we're cool with each other. We're not in our awkward ex boyfriend/girlfriend phase anymore. And I feel like I can totally deal with being friends with him even though I have a crush on him (only as long as slut and ex stays away from him twisted ).
