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CHAPTER ONE: I AM YOURS YET AT THE SAME TIME, I AM NOONES.

I stood in my room the rain pouring outside. I was looking at the black silk dress laying on my twin sized bed. I was looking at that, and the glass mask beside it. The prom or to be more acurat the maquerade was tonight. I loved the fact that it was raining as well. It added to the mysteriouse and different facter. I had been waiting on this day for over a year. I thought about this as I picked up the dress its silk sliping between my fingers. I had wanted to go to a masquerade for as long as I could remember. I had pictured it all in my head. I had dreamt about it. I shook my head clearing it of that particular thought. I had sliped into my dress and was now viewing myself in my mirror. There was a slit that ran up to my thigh exposing most of my left leg. I shruged. I thought it had added a nice touch to this. I twisted a bit more looking at myself. The black realy made my pale skin stand out. I liked it. I had already done my hair about an hour earlier. I had curled it a bit pulling it up loosly. Because my hair was long it draped a little over my exposed shoulders.
I put on my eyeliner and outher make up. Trying not to go overboard with it. I was shoked when I was finished. To be honest, I looked like a vampire. My dark forrest eyes stood out all to well under the eye shadow and maskera. My face was pale and the red lipstick made it look just a bit paler. (Along with my black bodyfitting dress.) I smiled glancing outside as the rain got harder, lightning lighting up my backyard. The trees blowing hard in the wind. I slid my heals on and straped them around my ankle. I had spent so much money on just this outfit I realized. I gave a short laugh turning back to my bed. The mask sat there almost staring back at me. Its glass feeling cool against my fingers as I picked it up. Its egyption style eyes outlined in black stared at me in an almost creepy way. I took off the glasses I was wearing and slid on my clear contacts. It would help a lot in the comforts zone under my mask. I looked at it a moment more before sliding it onto my face. I then looked back into the mirror. to be honest it frightend me. The pale mask was carved with a circlet on the forhead. Wraped in green vines. It looked...no,...I looked, very..stuning.
My phone rang loudly, a signal that my freinds were here in the lemo. I smiled Texting Whittny back saying I would be down in a moment. I walked out of my room grabing my phone and an umbrella. I walked down the staires being careful not to step on my...oh so usualy, strate dress.I opened my door locking it behind me, the parents were out for the weekend so I was trying to be responcable. I opened my umbrella before stepping off of my porch. I was tingling with exitment. I couldnt wait to get to the party. I had helped plan just a little bit of it but I wanted to see the outcome of what I helped with. Sombody threw open the door of the white lemo for me, and I hurried to climb in. Whittny and Amanda where there with their dates. Deymion and Kyle. the boys were dressed both in black tuxes. Deymion holding a "Super hero mask" in his hands, while whittny carried a pale half faces mask. With a feather sticking from the side. I thought it was cute. It matched her dress wich happen to be dark green. No sleeves and poofy at the bottom. It shown her dark legs wich I knew deymion probably had a fit over.
Kyle, Amandas date had a frowning mask like you would use for the drama symbol. I laughed at this because he was always smiling and laughing. It made his black tux look exotic while Deymions just made him look....stuning? I smiled. Amandas dress was a dark dark blue color. It was frilly at the sleeves poofed at the waist as well. I felt bad, was mine the only one that whent strate down? I took this all in withen seconds as I sat down. The car pulled away and we were finally on our way.
"Wow Makayla you look realy stuning in that dress. Im surprised about the slit though it adds a nice touch, I never expected you in it" Amanda stated giving me a hug. That was the perpose. To be different, and unexpected. Aperently it worked.
"Ya well I tried to be realy different this time you know?" I complemented back.
"Well it lookes nice on you" whittny complamented.
"Thank you. The both of you look realy nice to. I like how you and Kyle went for the drama masks" just noticing that the one she held was the opposite of her boyfreinds. "And whittny green matches you" Whittny smiled. I knew green was her favorite color. I sighed as Deymion began laughing. Here comes the usualy snappy remarks he always made.
"You know Makayla with a dress like that im not surprised if they kick you out. It is a bit showy and im sure ALL the guys will just run towards you." He bust out laughing as did Kyle. He knew I had an issue with boys and geting any kind of date. I usualy just blabed like an idiot whenever I was close to one I liked. I just stuck my tong at him taking my mask off so he could see. He just winked hugging Whittny closer to him. So for most of the ride we just talked and joked around. Talking about our collage and summer plans while I tried hard to ignore deymions "joking" remarks. I managed to kick him in the nee once and whittny cried laughing.
"I told you she would do that one day.!" She laughed.
"Ya well who thought little miss shyness had it in her huh?" After that he just rubed his leg and avoided making me mad again.The rain didnt stop , but it didnt let up either, It made me jealouse that the boys could hug the girls to them and kiss them and love on them. Blaming it on the fact they were protecting them when we were still INSIDE the lemo. But we finally made it to the school. Whittny finishing up a conversation we were having.
"Who knows Kayla maybe you'll find your date tonight. Your special sombody, I mean it could happen." I sure hoped so. I was so tired of being alone and having the only guy i could go to be my dad. There was no way i was going to deymion or kyle though we were all realy realy close. I dont know, Kyle wasnt so bad. He was more of the gentle seriouse type. But he had been hanging around deymion way to much latly. Wich showed when we were in the lemo. I sighed, geting out of the car my mask back on and the umbrella open.
"Ya maybe..lets hope. Who knows i might even run into a few vampires" I scoffed. She just laughed as they headed inside. I stayed outside standing under an over hanging in front of the school. I looked around. The parking lot empty of peaple yet full of cars. I had a car but I figured a lemo would be better. The rain managed to drizzile on me just a bit because of the wind. But I didnt mind. It felt good, and cool. I loved the rain and it made me so relaxed. Looking around I tried to keep down the exitment I had pent up. The car ride had helped but now that I was beside myself, it was bubbling up. I took anouther deep breath.
" Wonderful night isnt it?" I froze. I could feel the the strangers voice against my neck. It was warm. He laughed gently as if I had told a joke that had reminded him of a sad memory. I spun around my heart racing loudly.
"Wh-" Nobody was there. At all. No door opening or closing saying he had run. No peaple runing or laughing. Just the silance of the rain. I spun around looking around me. I couldnt have imagined that. I could FEEL his breath agenst my neck. Why would I imagine that? I shook my head trying to get my heart to stop pounding in my head. That was so weird! I gave a short laugh at how badly I seemed to be overreacting. I had stood outside long enough. About twenty minutes actualy. I sighed walking inside and looking around. The halls were dim the lights turned mostly off. That didnt help me any. If there was somhing els I hated besides masked voices it was dark hallways. I walked slowly though, The more I faced what I was afraid of, the more I could get over it.
The walls were lined with dance poster, last minute anouncments games and so many outher posters they lookd painted to it. The trash cans were over flowing with them, and it looked as if one more peace of paper and they would explode. It was silent as well. I looked into the classrooms to see them dark and emtpy, Awaiting next years students. The lockers were clean and free of any drawing or marking made from students in the hours before the dance. The hallway just seemed to stretch on and on in front of me. With twisting hallways and doors. I walked a Little ways down it listening to the pounding of some type of techno music coming from the direction of the gym. I headed in that direction but imediatly froze as I heard sombody yell as if they had been slamed into a locker. Wich to no surprise was the sound that came next. I walked stupidly in that direction. This could be very very bad. It was probably just sombody trying to play jokes on the kids who had decided to ditch the dance and make out in the hallways.
I sighed ignoring it, heading back in the direction of the gym. I made it safly down the hall to infront of the gym doors. I took a deep breath and mutterd to myself.
"Okay I helped plan this. Its going to be a lot of fun. im going to find sombody to dance with and have a normal dance. I was imagining everything I had heard erlier. lets do this" Of course I felt ridicoulous for talking to my self. But hey, it helped. I was finaly to excited to wait anymore. The song changed to somthing softer for the "couples" and I opened the door. If I had the right to be called stupid, it was now. I did NOT expect what I saw. All I could do was stand there looking like an idiot who had just been told he wasnt as smart as he thought he was. I was thankful that I had my mask on. But the shock wasnt one of disgust. Because I had never seen anything more beautiful then the school gym in front of me right now. Everything was so perfect right down to the food siting on the snack bars. I walked forward slowly looking around. This was so perfect.
Above me the roof was lined with streamers. Golden, orange, red, green, and purple silk streamers hung loosly. But thats not what got me looking up at the roof. Who ever had did this had to be realy realy rich. Because silk dancers twisted and twirled from their streamers like they were in water. The three dancers looking so exotic I could only stare in aw. The one closest to me had realy pale skin. Her hair was wild and red. But it looked beautiful on her. She to had a mask, but it only coverd the top part of her face. She looked at me her eyes an orange. I blinked at her. She had to be wearing contacts. Nobody had eyes that color. She did a flip through the purple silk making it look everything but hard. She wore a dark dark purple outfit made of what looked like silk. And as I glanced around at the outher two I noticed they wore the same thing but green and red. It was cut and exposing their entire stomach. They wore very short skirts that made it look that much more different. I tore my gaze away from the dancer above me to the outher two.
The one hanging obove the students wore the green outfit. Her hair was short. very short. And black. She to was pale, and wore blood red lipstick. Her black eyes also watching me as I looked at her twirl two, three times in the air. I tore my gaze from her to the last one in red. She was at the far side of the gym. Her hair was long curly and brown. She seemed to twist in sinc with the outhers. A mask on her face as well. It took me a few minutes but I was finaly able to look away from the three dancers to what was around me. The walls were lined with crystal balls. Flowers such as roses, lillies, and a few outhers I didnt recognize. The floor was litterd with sparlking confedy and flower petals. A large statue of an Angel stood in the middle of the gym. Its marble skin pale and smooth looking. The angels hair stood out as if being blown in the wind. She had little clothes on besides the silk that wraped around her small body. The wings spread out slightly to her side before curving up to form an arch over her head. Her face seemed gentle yet watching as it stared at nothing. It was young and very detailed in its carving. Masked dancers twirled around it. Their almost silent chatting feeling the air. As the dark color strobe lights blinked repeatidly the pendant around the angels neck seemed to shimmer.
As I took a deep breath I noted that the air smelt heavily of vanilla and roses. It was sweet and smelt good. Sombody must have paid to have perfume sprayed into the air. Looking around at the dancers I was still in shock and amazment. This was so unbalievable and it felt as if this was fit for a king rather than a small town highschool. How could sombody come up with so much money? I had no idea that what I was planning would turn out like this. I wanted to find out who had paid for this though. Our school could barely afford text books let alone this.
"Look!" sombody shouted and the dancers all looked up to where he was pointing. The roof. I looked up as well. Balloons I hadnt noticed erlier suddenly burts loudly causing a few girls to squeal. But thats not why everyone had looked up. As the balloons burst, confedey and somthing that looked like pixi dust sprinkled over us like a light rain. I laughed looking at my self as glitter coverd me lightly. It made me think oddly of a book I had read recently. But this was better then that. THIS prom was beyond perfect. I walked over to a black bench beautifly carved with roses and sat down looking around again. The dancers all looked stuning. A few men wore black and white top hats with their tuxes. Wich surprisingly didnt glitter as bright as me, or the outher girls did. Their masks were of a variety of sorts. Anywhere from the v for vendetta to the simple super hero eyes masks there were even a few to go as far as original maskerade masks. But the men all wearing tuxes was nice I thought. The girls wore a variety of dresses as well. The super model runway dresses that fit every curve, for the more wealtyher familys. To the simple red flirtatious ones for outhers. I spoted Whittny and Amanda moving back and forth slowly with their dates. The music on a different but still slow, song.
I had no date and by the looks of it I was the only one without one. I leaned back against the bench looking up at the dancers again. Every now and then catching the chilling eye of one of them. But I was depressed. I knew I should be because I had noone. This was the perfect prom yet I had noone to dance with. I thought back to the voice from erlier. Was I imagining that? A cold hand touched my neck brushing some of the hair away from it. I turned gasping as a masked face apeared beside me. His mask was so much like mine..exept it didnt have a circlet. It had a tribal like symbol in the forhead. A black streak runing across the eye and cheek like a scar. It was stuning. I stood up as I looked at this. He had scared me. Horribly to. I thought everyone had goten a date. I looked him over curiously as he stood a few feet away from me. His hands held up in a aplogizing gesture. He wore a top had and his black hair curled falling over the mask in random places. His tux was black but there was somthing different about it. But what? It looked a bit more different than the outhers....better somehow. My heart was still pounding as I looked into his deep green eyes.
"I am sorry" I apologized Siting back down. Why did this seem familer to me. Like I had done this before.?
"No its my fault I shoudnt have startled you. I got here a few minutes ago and was wondering..would you like to dance?" He bowed to me holding one hand on his stomach the outher on his back. How odd. But I barly noticed this. His voice. I had heard it before. I kicked myself mentaly. Why was this so familier.?! I stared though hoping he didnt see how shocked I was under the mask. It was the same voice as before. Exept this time I felt drawn to it. Like I had to be near him. This was freaking me out.
"Have we met before?" I asked a bit shakily. Coming out of his bow he walked forward just a step holding out his hand to me. Wich I noticed was pale. As so many peaple here seemed to be. I looked at it as if expecting a ball to apear in his hand. I took it flinching slightly at how cold his hand was. It was like holding a soda can from an ice cooler. But I didnt say anything. Just looked at how his hand had intertwined with mine.
"No I dont belive we have. But you do seem very familer." he answerd pulling me gently to my feet and placing my hand on the back of his neck. Wich was cold as well though maybe not as cold as his hands. I found this a bit odd as he placed his hand on my waist and the outher in my free hand. But I couldnt say anything. My hands were usualy freezing cold as well. He pulled me backwards into the outher dancers. So we blended. We twirled lightly him guiding and me, to my surprise, easily following. A mozart song began playing and we kept dancing, Outhers leaving the dancefloor for a break or to talk privatly with their dates. The floor began slowly emptying as we danced. My eyes never leaving what I could see of his. His eyes seemed to shimmer with happyness, realization,...and somthing like hope. I was mesmerized by it. They were so green and....deep. I loved looking into them. They seemed also sad in a way, but it could just be my imagination.
There was a mysterious aora about him. Somthing deep and in some ways..dangerous. It scared me, my heart was still thuding a bit to loud. But more than anything I was curiouse. I wanted to know who this boy was. And if I knew him in school. As we danced alone on the floor and he gazed into my eyes, I thoght about it. Was there anyone I knew in school who made me feel so cautios around them? Sombody I felt drawn to. A voice like his. I shook my head. Nobody came to mind. His Eyes turned into curiosity as I did this..
"What are you thinking about?" He asked obviously curiouse about why I had shook my head. I gave a small laugh deciding to be honest with him.
"I was thinking back to school. If I knew anyone I...Anyone like you. You seem different..in a good way" I added. "I realy have no idea who you are."
"Hmm well lets let you mellow on that a bit more." He laughed stoping our dance. He tilted his head to a doorway that was draped in red satin curtains. Outside I had noticed a small gazebo draped in twinkling soft lights and thin beautiful neting to keep the bugs away. I also notced (do to a roll of thunder) That it was still raining. I smiled. "Want to go out?" His voice was soft yet edged with curiosity.
"I would love to. And you dont mind that its still raining?" I asked hoping he didnt. He shook his head.
"As long as you dont melt ill be alright." He laughed. I giggled with him as he took my hand and pulled me close to him. We walked over to the door and he opened it rain imediatly spraying us lightly. He turned his head to the side and did everything but held and umbrella over me. He was leaning protectivly over me. Protecting me from the rain, wich surprisingly worked. We made it to the gazebo his hair and just about all of him sokeing wet. We got under the shelter and he shudderd lightly. I frowned.
"You didnt have to do that, now your all soaked" I complained brushing off his shoulders. I had managed to get a bit wet, but nothing compared to him sense the rain was blowing in his direction. He just shook his head taking off the Jacket part of his tux, and his hat. Leaving him in a white pirate looking shirt. wich to be honest looked good on him. His hair was slick and still curling. But dripping wet. Guess the hat didnt help much.
"I didnt want you to get sick" He replied his voice extremly serious as he looked at me through his mask. I sighed.
"And what about you. You could get sick now" I watched him as he kicked aside the jacket and hat. Then huging me closer in the same dance form as erlier. Yet there was no music he still twirled me slowly.
"Makayla....will you take your mask off?" He asked ignoring my question. I was a little bit shocked though. He seemed sad and just a hint of being annoyed. His eyes looked sad as well. It made me want to imediatly take it off for him. But i didnt.
"Why?" I asked in nothing els but a whisper. I couldnt talk louder than that. Because out of the hole night this part was the most familier. I felt like I had done this before. Many times. Like if I didnt...if I did..my life would change forever. I stoped dancing but didnt move my hands away from his neck and hand. There was somthing wrong with this picture. But what?!
"Because im tired of not being able to see you." His words were laired with double meaining. But I couldnt even began to understand what it was. Ugh who was he?! HAD we met? And what did he mean? We had only just met about half an hour ago. I couldnt asnwer him. I just slowly did as he asked. His eyes looking so hurt. And to my surprise, he did the same. I placed my hand on the chin of my mask and pulled it up. Him copying my movements. I took it off holding it limply in my hand to my side as I gazed at him. He just simply let his rest on his head as if it was a mask he could pull down to protect himself from somthing. He looked searchingly in my eyes. And I did the same. I knew him. I know I do. But...from where? His eyes shimmerd sad and bright. His face was so pale and......perfect. His lips were a light pink and full. I reached my hand up and brushed his lips lightly. They were so soft. He brought his hand to slide gently across my face. It was cold and I shudderd. But not as cold as erlier.
"who are you?" I asked. I needed an answer. This was killing me. I couldnt figure him out. Yet I knew him. It felt so..the same. I had to know. Again he just shook his head. Shuddering as I traced the outline of his lips easily. He moved closer to me and I didnt move away. He placed one hand on my back. the outher on my waist. He leaned me back his strong hands supporting me as I leaned into a dip. His face was inches from mine. My arms wraped around his cool neck. His breath was sweet.
"I am an angel. Yet I am a demon. I am yours, yet at the same time I am noones. I am alive..yet I am dead. I, am alone." He whisperd into my ear before pressing his lips pasionatly to mine. His hands still strong, holding me protectivly.