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The heart dies a slow death, shedding each hope like leaves. Until one day there are none.
And I feel sick to my somtach
Because thats all I was ever meant to feel
No one can be loved by this cold heart
Warmth doesnt come from this body
I was swallowed into darkness
And now it has stopped my emotions
From ever being able to get through
There is something wrong me with me
Ive known it all along
I might cry tears, but are they real?
Or was I just programmed to do that
Maybe Im just lost
Maybe Im where I was meant to end up
And I feel sick to my stomach
Because thats all I was ever meant to feel






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Xameus
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commentCommented on: Fri Jul 31, 2009 @ 07:12am
It wasnt always this way....


commentCommented on: Fri Jul 31, 2009 @ 07:14am
I know it wasnt, but this is how it has ended up...because its the way Im meant to be...



Inverno houra Roselia
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commentCommented on: Fri Jul 31, 2009 @ 07:18am
You can always go back....


commentCommented on: Fri Jul 31, 2009 @ 07:19am
How? How do I reverse such a horrible proccess?



Inverno houra Roselia
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commentCommented on: Fri Jul 31, 2009 @ 07:22am
You dont.... Ive saved you from yourself before.. as long as you let me I can do it again... as long as you let me.... and understand.... You know this.... Things dont end here....


commentCommented on: Fri Jul 31, 2009 @ 07:24am
And what if they do end here?



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commentCommented on: Fri Jul 31, 2009 @ 07:27am
Your story doesnt end here, if it did you would be gone by now, and you would be alone.... But you arent...You still have a goal,and you still have people who support you... Who care about you....


commentCommented on: Fri Jul 31, 2009 @ 07:29am
*sigh* emo



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commentCommented on: Fri Jul 31, 2009 @ 07:36am
You may not care or love me anymore, but Im still here, and things were never this bad when you were with me. Why? because when I had the chance, I made sure things wouldnt crash down like this.... we overcame everything.... but without me, and rejecting me, and other friends like me..... things have gotten alot worse when youve made choices on your own... and I dont want you to learn everything the hard way like I did, I want you to be safe and protected from these things, even if you are strong and mature enough to face them.... I dont want you to go through that kind of pain like you are now... I never wanted you to...


commentCommented on: Fri Jul 31, 2009 @ 07:44am
I do still care and love you, but I guess your just another person that doesnt believe it.
Things have been this bad when I was with you...We didnt overcome everything, if we could have overcome everything we would still be together. Im not rejecting you and friends like you, why does everyone think I am so against them? So I can make choices on my own now?...Im I realy that incapable...?....Well, im starting to learn everything the hard way. I can never be fully protected by these things...Well, I am going through the pain I am right now....its a little to late to not want it happen...

You may not care or love me anymore, but Im still here, and things were never this bad when you were with me. Why? because when I had the chance, I made sure things wouldnt crash down like this.... we overcame everything.... but without me, and rejecting me, and other friends like me..... things have gotten alot worse when youve made choices on your own... and I dont want you to learn everything the hard way like I did, I want you to be safe and protected from these things, even if you are strong and mature enough to face them.... I dont want you to go through that kind of pain like you are now... I never wanted you to...



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commentCommented on: Fri Jul 31, 2009 @ 07:49am
Things werent as bad as this, and it wasnt because of me for sure, and we arent together because you wanted to be with others... as a new experience....
And rather than defying me and everything I say maybe its time you listened and understood... and accept these things for what they are...


commentCommented on: Fri Jul 31, 2009 @ 07:51am
We couldnt overcome everything because you broke apart the we and turned it into only you, you and your interests, dreams, and experiences you wanted to try out, to try to prove yourself... to try to see if there was something better out there than me....
I always wanted everything to be alright, and I always put us first, I was ever unfaithful, or had my doubts... I didnt give up



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commentCommented on: Fri Jul 31, 2009 @ 08:00am
Of course it wasnt because of you, it was because of you. I ruin everything. I wanted to be with others because it seemed like things with you werent working out...and because of other reasons you know of...
Im not defying you...I am trying to listen and understand and accept everything for what it is.

How come when I actually listen to my friends, instead of going against them, it ends up being all my fault? I listened to Brad, Jenna, Brent, and a few other people and I get yelled at and it makes me a bad person for wanting to be happy and for listening to my friends...
I wasnt try to prove myself, and I was doing what I thought was best for me...Maybe there is someone better out there for me. Thaddeus could have been that person, but who knows now because he thinks I dont love him.
I wanted things to be alright also, I put you first for along time...That part is a lie, you did have your doubts.


commentCommented on: Fri Jul 31, 2009 @ 08:06am
Someone out there better for you? Rebecca, you need to start fixing problems for yourself before trying to reach higher and higher.... And when you listened to me things werent always your fault.... it would be me, I would take the blame and your friends would blame me...Because I would for you.....



Xameus
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commentCommented on: Fri Jul 31, 2009 @ 08:13am
I have fixed a lot of problems...but I guess not enough because im still ******** up...So im just supposed to listen to you the rest of my life so that when I make a mistake its not always going to be my fault...? What about listening to myself...? What about I taking the blame..? I have before, I can will all my other mistakes...


commentCommented on: Fri Jul 31, 2009 @ 08:16am
Maybe you'll learn to truly regret when Im not here anymore, and the day when I say that I dont love you... because thats the path you walk towards... maybe Ill realize that you are just a lost cause, and that you crave this drama, and you enjoy torturing me..



Xameus
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commentCommented on: Fri Jul 31, 2009 @ 08:19am
I truly regret a lot of things...
I dont crave this drama..I dont crave any of this...I want to be happy...
And I dont enjoy torturing you...or anyone for that matter...


commentCommented on: Fri Jul 31, 2009 @ 08:28am
I am the answer, refuse me if you want... either way Im strong enough to deal with this... or deal with giving up on you forever...



Xameus
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commentCommented on: Fri Jul 31, 2009 @ 08:30am
How are you the answer, because you know it?...


commentCommented on: Fri Jul 31, 2009 @ 08:36am
I can be the solution....I can take away the pain, Ive changed for you... remember?
Im always here for you.... I can make you feel loved....



Xameus
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commentCommented on: Fri Jul 31, 2009 @ 08:38am
Yes...I remember... emo


commentCommented on: Fri Jul 31, 2009 @ 08:40am
If I could do it all again I would for you...



Xameus
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commentCommented on: Fri Jul 31, 2009 @ 08:42am
cry


commentCommented on: Fri Jul 31, 2009 @ 08:45am
Id go through all this pain again, and in my past if it meant that you would feel none... I just want you to finally be happy crying



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