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i am not well at all, i feel like the worst momma and feel as if scruffs death was my fault, i feel i should blame the devil for making such horrid thoughts run through my head.......the last thing i thought was "maybe it would be better if scruff was dead i would get sleep" shortly after he died, i did not sqeeze him to death or anything, i was trying to fight the horrid thoughts as best i could for the sake of scruff.........but i feel as if i was the cause.......i feel so awful......i don't know how the thought occured, it just suddenly went through my mind iwas trying to think " no, no no no, it would not be best, i would rather stay awake forever than have scruff die"...........i had to share this someone please whoever reads this please don't judge me........
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